i'm always here...

wala na akong oras dito. grabe. hehe.

whoa! hello. thank God of my mother, i posted this post. nyahahahoho!i really am enjoying my first week in UST with my blockmates. but i prefer calling them classmates. maybe
i'm just not used to call them blockmates. whatever.

saturday. PE orientation. i am wearing then my PE uniform. i really like it because it looks so nice. wieee! yellow black! growl. we proceeded to PE annex. i expected that we will be oriented but all we did is sit there and followed them singing some cheers for the up coming UAAP season "unknown". i don't know the season. ust will be the host of this season's over-all events. we sang some stuffs like go uste, viva la liga el tomasino, s-a-n-t-o-t-o-m-a-s fight, something like that. what a waste of time. nyahaha! then after the "orientation" i went to Joli's to buy my stuffs. wahaha. arking arki na! i spent 2,700+ for pens, t-square, papers, inks, rulers, erasers, everything. i'm tired enumerating them.

sunday. ROTC orientation. i came to ust at around a quarter before 7am. i walked to find some comrades
and i found none. it was already 7:30am when i noticed that nothing's happening. so i asked a groups of girls wearing the same attire i was wearing. they said "wala raw ROTC ngayon. sabi ng mga officers." nakanang...! i just wasted my money there?? i woke up so early, i used my saved money for my pocket money, then they just said na walang rotc? wada. haha. but it's okay. humanda sila sa linggo. XD

monday, we had our first freehand drawing that seemed to be very insulting because all we did is to write the letters a-z and the numbers 0-9 and draw some lines here, curves there, everything. so much elementary. but we all took it seriously because it was really hard to draw the letters than writing them. our professor in freehand drawing told us "if you're going to put your name after each of your works, don't write it. draw it." it sounds really easy but doing it really takes time. wanna try? you put out 5 sheets of graphing paper and i'll tell and show you how. no, just kidding.

tuesday, i was late. we also did our first floor plan and i made a mess. the floor plan is cool but my exterior perspective of my house is the one i can call a mess. i don't know why. when i got home, i managed to sleep smiling because somebody texted me. so surprising. whoever you are, i miss you so much. ^^

wednesday, vacant.

thursday! i just came from ust. i was with my guy friend, my new classmate michael. we just met on some street over espana. he is also waiting for a vehicle to ride on that time. we spotted an air-conditioned bus then we "go for it!" we talked a lot, asked and answered some of our questions, laughed, shared some thoughts, even shared some secrets. friendly, eh? ^^ it was so tiring then because i had with me my triangles, t-square and tracing tube that unfortunately we didn't use. wa. so i carry the burden carrying those stuffs with me. we already have our lockers there but the problem is that we don't have a lock. i asked ian to buy one for us. ian, my new friend. haha. and i have a bad news: tumataba na ako. i hate it.

a blessed week! i'm so happy. la lang. ^^

first week of classes is really fun. especially when your seatmate is kinda uhm... wahahaha!

MONDAY:

Antipolo mass w/ CE '70. i woke up at exactly 3am to do my everyday routine. i exercised, stretched, cleaned my self, everything! then i arrived at mcdo at 4:30am. unfortunately, i forgot to bring with me my purse where i put my money. i had fun. and i got lonely a bit. should i?? should i?? no.. waaa.. this bothers me. a lot.

TUESDAY:

my first mass in UST. saya. i've met apaul. a paul. apaul! wat da.. so cute name. she's a fine arts student, specifically an interior design student. we're freinds NA.

WEDNESDAY:

rest day, wala akong pasok.

THURSDAY:

first day in room 503. basta, saya. my new friends are cecille, "JR" <uhm..>, geordan, and capao. 3 guys and 2 gals? so perfect. ^^ i got so tired after my class. our graphics professor gave us the list of the "must haves" of the first year students. so i texted my sister, since she was excited regarding of my buying pf architect tools, that we'll be going to national bookstore after our class. we looked for those tools given to us then asked for their prices. after, we got the cost of P3,500 just for only those few stuffs. what the lalala... but the tools look so beautiful in my eyes. and i reall am excietd to buy them all. wiee! disisit! wahaha!

FRIDAY:

today! we are here [i, cecille, jr, capao, and geordan> at some sort of an internet cafe near jr's dorm. i'm kinda hungry. know what, we're spending our time here because an hour in this internet cafe <?> is FREE. yes! wahaha, free.. today is the opening day of this place and we decided to enjoy our one hour here, for free. nyahahaha! thanks to jr. he's such a nice person. actually all of them. ^^

i have a problem though i should really not consider it as a problem. shit. all the words those persons said still run here inside my head. was it really my fault? i never expected this. anyways, i'll just try forgetting those stuffs. uhm, forget forget forget. there you go.i was inspired updating my diary because something very unexpected happened to me. i just hope that this would be the last. please God. *fingers crossed.
well, i'm planning to go to recto tomorrow to pick up my ROTC shirt. ROTC? yes, ROTC. i chose that under my NSTP. and i do feel i really chose the wrong thing. dammit.

the thoughts are coming. come come come. haha. and i think you'll be reading a long post here, a bit maybe. hahar.

updates? okay.

uhm, i just got enrolled in UST for the first semester this coming school year. you want to know my tuition fee? well, i don't want you to know. T____T
the enrolment is fun. really fun! i chose my PE and paid for the fee i have to pay. then i had my ID picture taken, asked for an order for 2 sets of uniform, ate Zagu, asked for updates about the audition for new members of Salinggawi, talked to some strangers [friendly, e?], everything!

and oh! i together with my friends [noriza, mimi, claire, joyce, kirstie, amy, marifel, philipp, bjorn, carlo, marco, fressie, russel, and chester] had our bonding time the day before my enrolment. we had our outing, a not-so-planned outing, at Green Nature in Patiis. Russel pleaded for it because the day after tomorrow will be the day of his operation. buti na lang magkakasama kami nung araw na nagplano kami, something like that. we had fun, SOOOOOOOOO MUCH FUN!! ^^

i'm missing my friends so much. starting this june, we'll all be having our different ways, different univs and colleges, different thoughts, different class, different us. huhu.

i just finished my merieda and dinner. i just ate 1 loaf of bread [as big as the size of my 2 fists times 2], two hamburger patties, and strawberry juice. that's my dinner. ^^

recently, i tend to sleep very late at night just to perspire. hehe. i miss dancing so much that it really makes me choreograph some moves so i would be able to share it with my friends. uhm, let's say my co-dancers. haha. i just choreographed the song "because of you" by ne-yo. have you heard it? it's a nice song. ^^

i guess i need to stop now. i have to do some housework this time.

i wanna break down and cry.i don't know what to do.i didn't mean to make and break their hearts.i never asked them to fall for me but now,i am the one that asks them to forget their love for me.i can't take it.i'm causing them so much pain and sadness.they've loved me so much that they really don't know how to live without me,i know it.how i wish i never become like this because they've loved me fully,loved me for who i really am,no matter how i became so negative about things,especially life.why do they feel that way for me?i really don't know what to do.i just wanted to be friends with them but i really didn't expect that they'll feel that super special feeling,you know what i mean.hay.they're making me sad.they're making me suffer.i wanna cry for help.

oy! miss mo 'ko? haha! sana oo. mejo matagal-tagal na rin akong hindi nakakapaglagay ng kung anu-ano dito a. sobrang naging busy po kasi ako.

game.

`promenade.
uhm, was that really a promenade? hehe. wala kasing 3rd year. but i felt much happier.

we both arrived sa school nung mga quarter to 7 pm na. buti na lang at hindi pa kami gaanong late sa processional. at nabigyan pa kami ng rosas. wieee!
`first dance.
supposedly si ace ang first dance ko. pero inagaw ni tzupat yung sayaw na yun kaya si tzupat yung first dance ko. we danced. we talked. we danced.
he cried. yes, he cried. then he embraced me whispering the words na hindi ko ineexpect na maririnig ko sa kanya. "mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal... kita." basta, ang haba, ang daming beses, pault-ulit. akala ko joke lang. *pero i proved it real when he told me 2 weeks after the prom that he really loves me a lot. i was overwhelmed and a little bit flattered and thankful. flattered because akala ko walang magkakagusto sa akin kasi ganito ako. get what i mean? parang bang hindi ako yung tipo na magugustuhan ng kung sinuman jan sa tabi. hehe. uhm, thankful because i just thought na no other person can ever love me like the way paul blaise did.  i don't miss him. and i've helped myself not to miss him because i need not to
the party was a "nakakabitin" one. the food served, the dances we had, lahat! sobrang bitin. we want more!
awards were also given. dance presentations were presented. song numbers were given. hayun.
natapos ang lahat nang pumatak na ang ika-12:30 ng umaga. my closest friends planned an overnight kina janine. hindi ako pinayagan nung simula pa lang so we did a plan. pagkatapos naming gawin yung plan na yun, pinayagan na ako! yehey! ang saya!!
look at these pictures. ito yung pinaggagagawa namin nung madaling araw after nung prom.

haha!
almost 6 am na nung matulog kami. nagising kami ng 9:30 yata to watch "prince mackaroo." we played, we talked, we laughed, we reminisced, we chorva. haha! di ko na alam nangyari e. umuwi kami *frexy, noriza, mimi, kirste, and claire* siguro mga past 11 am na.
pagkauwi ko sa bahay hindi ko na maalala yung mga nangyari sa akin.

`sulyap
eto ginawa namin nung sulyap. wala naman akong pwedeng i-share e. hindi kasi kami nanood.

`defense.

preparation. naging sobrang toxic ng mundo ko nitong mga panahon na ito. i was assigned by marifel to do our presentation. okay lang, akala ko madali lang. yun pala, hindi. halos gabi-gabi na akong late matulog dahil dun. tapos gigising pa ng maaga kasi tuwing umaga, may meeting yung mga grupo. basta ganun nang ganun lagi. it lasted for about 2 weeks. whew. inaantok tuloy ako sa klase.
`research defense itself.
kabado kami. sana ma-defend namin nang maayos yung research nmin. nga pala, our research was entitled "the relationship between the parent's profile to the student's academic performance." all went smoothly, hindi kami nabara. hindi rin kami nakapangbara. sayang.
haha! saya.

`semi-finals.
eto? tomato sauce! hindi ako nag-aral para sa test na ito. ganun talaga. sinukat ko kasi kung gaano karami yung natutunan ko sa 9 months na inaral ko sa rcsm. buti pasado naman yung karamihan. mga 3 or 4 bagsak ko. okay lang, tanggap ko yun. hindi ako nag-aral e.

`finals
hindi rin ako nag-aral. alam ko na lahat e. hindi na namin nalaman kung pasado kami o hindi. hindi na namin nakita yung test papers namin e. wait na lang daw namin yung report card nmin.

`pronouncement
sempre. what?
hay, antok na ako.
basta valedictorian si russel my labs.
salutatorian si paul blaise.
1st honorable mention si marifel.
2nd honorable mention si claire my labs.
3rd honorable mention si noriza my labs.
ako?
basta, graduating. ^^
aakyat ako sa stage, ipinapangako ko. iaanounce kasi yung mga nakapasa sa UP e. wieee! kitams! *wink
hindi ako nakasali sa top 10. nahatak yata nung resulta nung semi-finals at nung finals. haha! okay lang yun. meron na kasi akong university na papasukan kaya ganung tinamad na ako mag-aral. basta!

`reservation of slot
tutal nabanggit ko na rin naman ang UST, magkkwento na rin ako nang pahapyaw.
last april 2, i went to UST to have my slot reserved for BS Architecture for the first 1st semester. meron na akong section, AR 1-2. *lintik, ayaw talaga ako lubayan nang dalawang numerong iyan. paking talaga.* hehe. ready na rin ako for enrolment this april 26. ano kayang PE pipiliin ko? sa UPLB kasi ang pipiliin kong PE ay cheer dance, street jazz, aikido, at yung isa pa na nalimutan ko na ang tawag. yun ang mga pinili ko bibigyan ako ng pagkakataong mag-aral doon. sana meron ding related sa dance na PE dun sa uste.
look:

goodnight!

...the UPCAT.

...the MITET.

...the USTET.

i took entrance examinations from University of the Philippines, mapua Institute of Technology, and University of Santo Tomas.. fortunately, i passed them all.. [thank you Lord!] i'm so happy..

whew! it's just like i almost went back to the times when i was so very busy preparing for something [talking about school work or anything] that made me so much sleepy every afternoon [which is very unusual when it comes to my attitude of sleeping] and have an at least 8 hours of sleep every night. this december, particularly the week before dec. 25, i've been so very busy doing somethings.

uhm, let's have my list of what i have done starting from the following days:

dec. 19_
last day of december examination. it was so annoying then because our watcher, which is our adviser, asked me to leave my FAVORITE SEAT and transfer to another.. grr.. i really should've complained on that [but i can't and i don't want to]. why? it is because on that seat, on my favorite seat, i can concentrate on my test. i'm at the corner kasi e. hehe.. shallow? that's me..
after that exam, we had our christmas party [a not-so-planned christmas party] inside our classroom.. that was our last christmas party at rcsm so we better enjoy it a lot.. wanna know our attire? we just wore our best uniform.. haha! we all agreed on that so it is everybody's decision.. we had our party, games, eating time, and the exchanging of gifts. it is our second christmas party in that school. and it is the best [or better?]. how nice.. huh?
after the party that ended at around 5pm, we [my closest friends] started our journey to tri ves [a computer rentals near our school] but unfortunately, it was fully loaded of people.. so we find ourselves some computer rentals cause we're craving to play dota that time [i crave for o2 jam]. we went home of different time. the first 4-noriza, claire, rachel, and janine-stopped playing after an hour. frexy and philipp after 2 hours and carlo after 3 hours. haha! nga pala, i've received two gifts that day: 1 from marco and 1 from philipp. liked them both.

dec. 20-22_
simbang gabi with family.. i don't think i had a scheduled task to be done on these days.. i think i just played o2 jam on these dates.. maybe.

dec. 23_
am: i went to NSDA with my choirmates to attend and sing for the mass [simbang gabi]. after it, we went to mcdonald's to have our breakfast. haha! it's for free! [i really do not know who paid for the meal we've taken..]
pm: CE '70 [Catholic Ensemble '70] just had their caroling.. it was fun, i enjoyed it. n_n
it should've started at 6pm but since late comers exist, it started at around 7:30 or 8 in the evening.. we knew it. [or should i say i knew it]. i really liked what had happened on that day because i really enjoyed our trips. but there's one thing that really made me soooooooo much embarrassed. ..... i'll just keep it, you'll never like it.. grrrr..

dec. 24_
an ordinary sunday. i went to church, played o2 jam, uhm..

dec. 25_
christmas!! that's it.. [happy birthday Papa God!]

dec. 26_
CE '70's christmas party.. it was fun, i enjoyed it too.. we held it at mcdonalds [we hate mcdonalds..haha!] but before that, i played o2 jam first with frenchly and danelyn. we also played dota with philipp, bjorn, and kirstie at tri ves, our home after school.. hohow!
that party's the best! [no..] laughters filled every empty spaces [what?] and my smile just broke when i saw dota boys.. he was there. know him? he's the man i really hated for he refuses he had hurt others where........i don't want to talk. he just hurt my bestfriend, i wanted to kill him. hay, i wanted that day to happen again.

dec. 27_
rachel, noriza, claire, philipp, and i went to riverpark. we ate a lot, bought things [particularly gifts for them], and boosted our energy laughing while finding our way out of that place.. haha! lost? kinda.. we went there at around 6:30pm, took an L300 ride after our journey and went home at about 10:30 in the evening. nice one..

dec. 28_
my sister asked me to accompany her to...secret! haha! shhh...

dec. 29_
i played o2 jam.. that's it..

dec. 30_
can't recall..

dec. 31_
new year's eve!.. happy new year!!!

mejo tinamad na akong mag-type.. sana mahalata mu..

[wahaha! para lang akong gumagawa ng article nito a..]

hay, i really can't forget this month.. lots of things happened to me this december [just talking of my school life. buhay bahay, buhay socializer..] i really don't care about everything now.. as long as i am satisfied, i can smile..

yesterday was the musical contest.. there, we presented all of our preparations starting from tuesday up to thursday.. whew!. it really worth the hardwork [paghahapit..]..

THE VOCAL SOLO SINGING COMPETITION-
it is the first event [but admiting is not really the highlight of the program] that warmed-up everybody---students, performers, watchers, teachers, personnel, audience, outsiders, vendors, construction workers, and parents.. okay lang, it made lang naman the program a palpak one.. the sound system encountered a problem.. it was fixed before the dance competition, buti na lang..

THE DANCE COMPETITION-
as one of the highlights of the program, this is the part i really enjoyed a lot.. [i think it is really obvious why i really liked this part.. o_o] i really can't explain the nervousness as well as the happiness i've felt before and after our dance.. whew! nga pala, we-mimi, janine, patricia, kirstie, sheilalyn, angelyn, normie, and joreen-joined the contest, representing the 4th year students. FORTUNATELY, we didn't got any place.. for short, we LOSE. why fortunately? it is because our classmates told us that whoever wins that competition will be the RCSM's representative for the INTERROOSEVELT DANCE COMPETITION.. e lahat pa naman ng mga kasama kong sumayaw ay mga cheerdancers.. kaya buti na lang at natalo kami.. =)
wahahaha! napakasaya ko pa kahapon kasi nakita ko yung CHILD ABUSE ko..halos lahat naman kami ng mga classmates ko ay may mga child abuse.. wieeeee! ahahaha! dancer siya, a third year stude.. his group won the first place. i know they deserve it, dancers talaga sila..

THE BATTLE OF THE BANDS-
ha! para sa amin, ito ang pinaka highlight ng program.. eto na!! in here, we boosted most of our energy.. basta! nga pala, ang pangalan ng banda from 4 rizal [aherm..!] ay "bound to break".. wahahaha! let me tell you the names of this band's members. =)
ava [vocals], bjorn [drums], emman and vincent [beat and rhythm] chester [bass], and carlo [organ and vocals]. they performed their version of bring me to life by evanescence. galing! galing talaga namin maghapit! basta!

hanggang dito na lang, may meeting pa kami para sa research.. =)

wala lang, wala lang malabasan.. "I REALLY HATE THE SEATING ARRANGEMENT THIS SEMESTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" NAKAKAINIS!!!

[nakapag-online din sa wakas..]

it was september 24, 2006, sunday, when i took my entrance examination in UST. i took up the september test so, of course, i belong to the first batch of examinees. [wala na akong maramdaman dito..] i started to prepare the things i need for the test the night before the test which is the night of september 23, saturday. i prepared my 2 mongol pencils [#2 is the required number of that pencil], my maped eraser [my sister brought it from Mapua Institute of Technology after submitting my form], and of course my exam permit.. i was then the 1st applicant for the 1st batch of examinees. i'm so proud! pwe.. haha! [parang wala lang naman!..] i really wanted to study in that university since i was in grade 6.. why? secret!! XD no, just kidding. the reason is that i really wanted to study in that very super duper old school.. unique! wahahaha!! XD

uhm, i want to tell something about the test itself.. you know what, the test is so easy. yes! you read it right, EASY.. the only problem there is that we were under time pressure. we have to answer each items as fast as we can without sacrificing the accuracy of the answers.. we have to answer an 85-item test for only 45 minutes![ kumusta naman!?] pero okay lang, i survived naman e and still had a rest after each test. uhm, i think a 5-10 min rest.. ting! food? no, i didn't ate for about 6 hours of staying inside the exam room.. my food then was inside my bag.. i forgot to put it out. i was hungry that time but the hunger fades while i'm having my test. it only comes back after the test.. sorry for me. good for me.. woohoo! [nakakaloka mga sinasabi ko!..]

after the test, the applicants who chose ARCHITECTURE as one of their preferred courses [either first or second choice] were told not to leave the exam room. i'm one of the left ones. [obvious na kung anong kors kinuha ko, diba?] we took a special test they call "spatial relations" according to my memory.. the test is an 80-item one to be answered for only 25 minutes.. ... 25 MINUTES!! kumusta na naman.. pero i still survived.. and my hand started to get numb because of so much cold.. that special test together with the major exam lasted for about 5 hours [1:30 pm ang start ng exam]. whew! super exciting ang lahat! gusto ko na malaman result.. =)

after that spatial relations test chuvaness, those examinees who chose one of the courses under CFAD [College of Fine Arts and Design] as their preferred course [either first or second choice ulit] were requested to stay inside the exam room for another special test. nakooo! manhid na ang mga daliri ko at sobrang giniginaw na ako.. and we have to stay inside that room for another 30 minutes because of that special test!.. hay nakooo talaga.. the test was a skill test. we were asked then to DRAW a mascot for a trade product and were asked to make some letterings out of different words the proctor wrote on the whiteboard. we only have to choose 3 out of 7 words..  i chose the words FILIPINO, ART, and BEAUTY among those words written........ then there! i finished the test for i think about 30-40 minutes. i'm not sure.. ayos lang kahit natagalan ako! my beloved ate waited for me patiently outside the building [Beato Angelico Building] where i took my exam. bait talaga! hehe.. no choice! hndi niya ako pwedeng iwan nuh!.. haha!! we left the university at around 7:30 pm.. look at that! it's too late na! hay..!

we went to rob ermita to make some gala and eat our dinner. we ate at kenny roger's.. okay lang, nabusog naman ako.. yum!! =d

i was so really tired that day.. hay.. waaa! naeeksayt na ako!! gusto ko na malaman yung result! sana makapasa ako sa FIRST CHOICE ko which is ARCHITECTURE.. tulungan niyo akong magdasal.. =)

hai..

what an experience! ai, dapat nga pala hindi ako mag-ingles dito.. hek! bahala na! kung ano na lang masabi ko, yun na!

hay nakooo, ano bang nangyari!? lagi na lang akong ganun.. tuwing practice, MAGALING. pero kapag actual performance na, HINDI PA NANGYAYARING HINDI AKO PUMAPALPAK..
nakooo! ayoko na! andami pa namang tao nun! at take note, sa performance ng bawat isa sa amin nakasalalay ang grade namin sa GAWAIN.. wah!! hindi ko na alam ang magiging reaksyon ko sa nangyari.. kasi ganito po ang tunay na nangyari-
+bago kami sumayaw, hinanda namin ni tzupat yung tape. tapos nung ready na yung tape, tinawag na kaimi. yung mga kuko ng gurls nakasuot na. yung pamaypay nila, nakaayos na rin. ako? hayun! tumakbo papuntang stage [kasi nag-umpisa na yung tugtog at nasa formation na rin sila pero ako nasa baba pa ng stage]. nilapag ko yung pamaypay ko sa hagdan sa stage at umakyat sa entablado habang isinusuot ang mga kuko ko. pasimple akong naglalagay ng kuko sa harap ng maraming tao!! hayustd!! medyo na-disappoint lang ako sa mga kasama ko kasi HNDI NILA AKO HININTAY NA MAAYOS YUNG SARILI KO.. para bang ano.. hayness..
pagkababa namin [first batch] sa stage, hinanap ko na agad yung pamaypay ko. at alam niyo ba, WALA AKONG NAKITANG PAMAYPAY. damn!! nag-panic na ako ng sobra nun!!! kasi, saglit na lang, aakyat na ulit kami.. tapos yung kinatatakutan kong mangyari, nangyari na.. nahuli ako ng akyat sa stage kasi sa kabilang hagdan pa yung entrance ko.. sumasayaw na sila, ako sumisimpleng gumalaw na rin.. thank God at nahawakan ko kaagad yung braso ni tzupat [salamat po, Papa God..] at nakapagsayaw na rin ako ng maayos..+
-hayun.. after nung performance, i hurriedly made a survey. ang tanong ko: "mukha ba akong na-late ng pagpasok kanina?" kasi nawala na talaga ako sa sarili ko nung mga oras na iyon. si miss president sabi "medyo pero buti nakahabol ka.." meron ding sumagot na "medyo.. pero kasi alam na namin yung sayaw niyo kaya alam namin kung anong mali.." pero ang karamihan sa kanila sabi, "MEDYO, pero ang galing mo.. kasi nakasabay ka pa rin.. ang galing mo talaga." [kelangan ba talaga niyan?] pero kinakabahan pa rin ako.. kasi, sobrang praktisado at sobrang alam ko na yung sayaw tapos dahil lang sa isang pagkakamali, magugulo mundo kO?? huh! pero sobrang thankful talaga ako at tinulungan ako ni Papa Lord.. =')

woohoo! alam niyo bang super duper to the fth power ang aking pagiging proud?? kasi... kasi... wooohooo! MISS ROOSEVELT COLLEGE SAN MATEO SI GELLIE!! wiiiiiie!! sobrang nabiyayaan talaga kasi siya e.. [tama ako, diba!?] grabe! halos maubos na yung powers at boses at lakas at ngiti ko nung banggitin yung pangalan niya bilang miss Roosevelt College San Mateo 2006!! i'm so proud na friend ko siya.. para akong may kaibigang artista!!! XD meron akong picture niya kaso nandito pa sa phone ko..

heto lang.. pahinga lang ako a.. medyo nakakapagod rin kasing tumambay sa mcdo after ng klase.. neks taym wulit!

ola! nandirito na naman ako, dadaldal. selebrasyon ng Linggo ng Wika ngayon at dapat, wala kang mababasang ENGLISH word dito. kaya sa pagbabasa mo sa buong sasabihin ko dito, hindi dudugo ang ilong mo.. haha! [subukan natin..]

medyo nagsisimula na akong tamarin matulog nitong mga nakaraang linggo, hindi ko mawari kung bakit at sa kung anong kadahilanan. siguro dahil iyon sa dahilang tinatamad na rin akong mabuhay. [nagdadrama na naman ako, hindi naman daw bagay sa akin.. wazhu!]

nananabik ako sa kanya! bakit ba tinaggal yung PRINCE MACKAROO!? hindi ba nila alam na maramina ang nahuhumaling sa palabas na iyon? maging ang mga kamag-aral ng ate ko, naiibigan na rin ang palabas na iyon.. tapos biglang mawawala!!?? putris, bakit ganun!?

nga pala.. linggo nga pala ng wika ngayon. may program mamaya [wahaha!].. yun lang.. masaya lang ako kasi wala kaming Economics, wala ring quiz. yehey!

teka, magpa-practice na kami.. hanggang dito na lang! peace out!

~~a late post..

i love my life! it's so miserable! now, i'm free from school works, extra activities, libangan chuvaness, from everything! the next nth hours would be mine! haha! mine! n_n

i've realized something: it is really hard to stop updating my very own blog. being busy is not really a good reason at all. that's my own blah blah.. wanna know my reason why did i say such thing? it is because the thoughts, the words, the things you are to say when you start to update your blog after a long time might come crashing down to your veins and may result to bleeding, pain, burden. get what i mean? ako hindi ko naintindihan sinabi ko.. hay..

update about our pc. we've already fixed it! [thank you for the support and prayers.. appreciated.] it started to have its memory attack i think last wednesday. we planned to change it's memory kasi we've found out na yun ang problema kaya paulit-ulit ang pag-break down nito. and we changed it nga. nung naayos na, nag-install na rin kami ng pwedeng ilagay. haha! just tried kung mabilis pa rin siya kahit na marami na siyang programs.. haeioun, mabilis nga e para namang si slowpoke sa kabagalan kapag nag-iinternet ako.

change!!

what's good in this life?? what?? tell me?? everything came so sudden that i can't manage to handle them all. [i think i have nothing important to say in here..]

my classroom [Room 306], which i considered lately as heaven, finally turned into hell.. everything and every person inside that damn room seems to become dire, unwanted, intolerable. now, i'm adjusting to live with and without those guys inside our horrifying and dreadful room. [can you help me?]

the endeavors started to swallow my everything.. my everything, yes, my everything.. i can't wait to leave that school. that's a curse!! everyday is like a nightmare, every second is horrendous..
doldrums..
unpleasant..

let's take it slow.. let me remember the things happened to me those past few weeks..

[let me have my time to think..]

august 12, saturday
august 12, carlo and marco's 15th birthday. i went to their house to greet them and be with them together with some classmates [ang konti namen! bakit kaya wala ung iba jan..]. akala ko, magiging ayos ako. pero nasobrahan yata ako sa pagiging ayos! you know what, i really showed them "I'M OKAY" that time. [hehe, you know what i mean..] nandun kasi ung DotA boys. want me to enumerate them? uhm.. louie, arnold, bjorn, jomar, paul, chester, eman, toti, uhm.. uhm.. i think sila lang un. hekhek! ano ba, i'm okay noh! medyo nakakalimot na ako sa nakaraan. he's happy na naman kahit na wala ako e. i know it.. T_n

august 13, sunday
a, eto ung practice ng sayaw for the Filipino week program.. i've waited outside plaza for almost an hour tapos bigla ko na lang nalaman kay russel na nakina ava lang pala sila! [bakit hindi niyo ako sinabihan? huhu.. joke!] okay lang na naghintay ako. [kayo pa!] wahaha!! then we polished the steps and tried to finish everything. and so we did. we finished rehearsing at around 4:30 pm yata. then i hurriedly ran to some comfort room here on earth to have my get-up changed. from jogging pants and t-shirt to palda and white pantaas. papunta akong simbahan e! [halata kayang pagod ako??] then after my transformation chuva, pinuntahan ko na yung choirmates ko then umupo ako sa pwesto ng mga alto [malamang isa ako sa mga alto..]. mejo naglinis nga ako ng katawan sa loob ng simbahan e.. nanghingi ako sa choirmate kong si pauLo ng alcohol. mejo muntik ko na ngang maubos ung alcologne niya e. kasi ipinaligo ko talaga sa braso ko ung hiniram ko na un.. okay lang, refreshing.. [thanks pauLo! ^-^] after ng mass, umuwi na kami.. ay, ako lang pala.. wala kaming meeting kaya ganun ang sitwasyon. hekhek!

august 18, friday
last day ng first quarter examination at syempre, KANYA-KANYA NA!! we went to McDo to talk about everything under the rizal atmosphere. chimri, um-order muna kami ng pagkain. nakakahiya naman kung tatambay lang kami dun e sobrang ingay pa naman kapag nagsama-sama kami.. while having fun sa table namen, i looked around at aba! almost 75% ng rizal ay nandun! haha! nakakatuwa.. our section invaded McDonald's.. wootwoo!! we laughed, sometimes chuckle [kasi napagod na katatawa!] and claire guffaw. haha! [wawa naman, lagi napagtitripan.. ^_^] nagsiuwian na kami ng 7..

anubato, tinatamad na akong mabuhay. walang nangyayari sa aking mabuti, puro kalungkutan nararamdaman ko. tapos yung tanging kaligayahan ko hindi pa ako mapasaya.. and that's my phone. wala akong makausap kapag globe gamit ko.. ganun din naman kapag smart.. *sigh

nga pala, read my thankyur list:
rachel m >> for always being there
tzupatz >> for understanding my feelings
amy >> for knowing what i really feel..
ava >> for everything
patricia >> for the trust
paul >> for the time
carlo >> for being such a nice guy
bjorn >> for lifting me up
tapel >> for the dance
angelyn >> for the graph
danelyn >> for understanding
louie >> for telling me everything
philipp >> for helping me realize i really can't let myself lose hope
claire >> for understanding and helping me
arabela >> for the chat
arnel >> for everything.. hugz
krisa >> for letting me know your feelings
frexy >> for being so stupid to let them see you so very happy.. you suck!!
for the people not mentioned >> thank you for everything, sa lahat. bad or good, thank you pa rin.

there.. my thankyur list. i'm a er.. [ano daw?]

hayan! marami na ba akong nasabi?? pwede n yan. hanggang sa muli! ^-^

hai..

what an experience! ai, dapat nga pala hindi ako mag-ingles dito.. hek! bahala na! kung ano na lang masabi ko, yun na!

hay nakooo, ano bang nangyari!? lagi na lang akong ganun.. tuwing practice, MAGALING. pero kapag actual performance na, HINDI PA NANGYAYARING HINDI AKO PUMAPALPAK..
nakooo! ayoko na! andami pa namang tao nun! at take note, sa performance ng bawat isa sa amin nakasalalay ang grade namin sa GAWAIN.. wah!! hindi ko na alam ang magiging reaksyon ko sa nangyari.. kasi ganito po ang tunay na nangyari-
+bago kami sumayaw, hinanda namin ni tzupat yung tape. tapos nung ready na yung tape, tinawag na kaimi. yung mga kuko ng gurls nakasuot na. yung pamaypay nila, nakaayos na rin. ako? hayun! tumakbo papuntang stage [kasi nag-umpisa na yung tugtog at nasa formation na rin sila pero ako nasa baba pa ng stage]. nilapag ko yung pamaypay ko sa hagdan sa stage at umakyat sa entablado habang isinusuot ang mga kuko ko. pasimple akong naglalagay ng kuko sa harap ng maraming tao!! hayustd!! medyo na-disappoint lang ako sa mga kasama ko kasi HNDI NILA AKO HININTAY NA MAAYOS YUNG SARILI KO.. para bang ano.. hayness..
pagkababa namin [first batch] sa stage, hinanap ko na agad yung pamaypay ko. at alam niyo ba, WALA AKONG NAKITANG PAMAYPAY. damn!! nag-panic na ako ng sobra nun!!! kasi, saglit na lang, aakyat na ulit kami.. tapos yung kinatatakutan kong mangyari, nangyari na.. nahuli ako ng akyat sa stage kasi sa kabilang hagdan pa yung entrance ko.. sumasayaw na sila, ako sumisimpleng gumalaw na rin.. thank God at nahawakan ko kaagad yung braso ni tzupat [salamat po, Papa God..] at nakapagsayaw na rin ako ng maayos..+

-hayun.. after nung performance, i hurriedly made a survey. ang tanong ko: "mukha ba akong na-late ng pagpasok kanina?" kasi nawala na talaga ako sa sarili ko nung mga oras na iyon. si miss president sabi "medyo pero buti nakahabol ka.." meron ding sumagot na "medyo.. pero kasi alam na namin yung sayaw niyo kaya alam namin kung anong mali.." pero ang karamihan sa kanila sabi, "MEDYO, pero ang galing mo.. kasi nakasabay ka pa rin.. ang galing mo talaga." [kelangan ba talaga niyan?] pero kinakabahan pa rin ako.. kasi, sobrang praktisado at sobrang alam ko na yung sayaw tapos dahil lang sa isang pagkakamali, magugulo mundo kO?? huh! pero sobrang thankful talaga ako at tinulungan ako ni Papa Lord.. =')

woohoo! alam niyo bang super duper to the fth power ang aking pagiging proud?? kasi... kasi... wooohooo! MISS ROOSEVELT COLLEGE SAN MATEO SI GELLIE!! wiiiiiie!! sobrang nabiyayaan talaga kasi siya e.. [tama ako, diba!?] grabe! halos maubos na yung powers at boses at lakas at ngiti ko nung banggitin yung pangalan niya bilang miss Roosevelt College San Mateo 2006!! i'm so proud na friend ko siya.. para akong may kaibigang artista!!! XD meron akong picture niya kaso nandito pa sa phone ko..

heto lang.. pahinga lang ako a.. medyo nakakapagod rin kasing tumambay sa mcdo after ng klase.. neks taym wulit!

i guess you've heard
i guess you know
in time my mind have told you
but i guess im too slow

that's so really romantic,
but i know that it's real
i hope you don't mind if i say what i feel

it's like i'm in somebody else's dream
this could not be happening to me

but you were there,
you were everything i've never seen
you woke me up from this long and empty sleep
i was alone, i open my eyes,
and you were there

don't be alarmed, no, don't be concerned
i don't want to change things
leavin' as just they were
i mean nothing's really different,
it's me who feel strange
i'm always lost for words
when someone mentions your name

i know that i'll get over this, for sure
i'm not the type who dreams there could be more

but you were there,
you were everything i've never seen
you woke me up from this long and empty sleep
i was alone, i open my eyes,
and you were there

can i take your smile home with me
or the magic in your hand

the rain has stopped, the storm has passed
look at all the colors, now the sun's here at last
i supposed that you'll be leaving
but i want you to know
a part of you stays with me even after you go

i can't have to blame someone else's...
this could not be happening to me

but you were there,
you were everything i've never seen
you woke me up from this long and endless sleep
i was alone, i open my eyes,
and now, i'm not alone, no, not alone
i open my eyes
and you were there
you were there..

nabawasan ng 2 days ang school days ko...

walang pasok nung wednesday, july 12. JULY 12! birthday ni JOMAR at ni MEL 'yun, diba? oo, birthday nila! sabay. SABAY! wuhuhu! SOULMATES! buti na lang at natanggap ni jomar yung pagbati ko sa pamamagitan ng napakaSAGRADO kong TEXT. saka sana, ni-save rin niya yung napakaSAGRADO kong NUMERO. tuwang-tuwa talaga ako nung sinabi niya sakin sa library na "thanks ha!" para dun sa pagbati ko sa kanya. yikkie! parang gusto kong magsisisigaw dun sa loob ng LIBRARY! wahaha!

medyo masama nga pakiramdam ko nung araw na iyon eh. at dapat hindi ako papasok kasi BUMABAGYO pero pumasok pa rin ako. eh kasi may LONGTEST sa RESEARCH, QUIZ sa ENGLISH, at RECITATION sa ECONOMICS. andami sanang gagawin kaso biglang in-announce ni SIR CRUZ sa library na "WALANG PASOK, MAGSIUWI NA KAYO." yehey! ang-ingay sa library! sigawan at nagbulyawan 'yung MOLAVE. chimri, naki-join ang RIZAL. ako yata may pinakamalakas na ingay na nagawa eh. medyo may ginawa kasi ako sa isang upuan kaya medyo umingay sa loob ng lib. buti hindi nabasag yung tiles na sahig. nyahaha! [narinig niyo ba 'yun? sana hindi...]

hayun, pagkatapos ng research nag-uwian na. pero 'yung mga members ng PROBE except yung MAG-ASAWA--hurm, kilala niyo na sila. ABAH! basta 1000000% hindi ako 'yun--hindi pa muna umuwi. ipapa-scan sana namin 'yung mga pictures na kailangan kaso dahil magsasara na raw ang school kasi nga walang na raw pasok, hindi na namin nai-save yung pictures. nakakainis, wala kasi kaming scanner dito sa bahay! ='( wala naman kaming gaanong gagawin kaya ginawa na namin yung Probe dito sa bahay.

magkakasama kami nina NORIZA, CLAIRE, JANINE, KIRSTIE, JOYCE, at PHILIPP bago umuwi. BABAE kami lahat. wahaha! kaso, nung papunta na ng bahay namin, sina noriza at claire lang ang kasama ko. si joyce umuwi na. sina janine, kirstie at philipp susunod daw. at talagang dapat sumunod sila dahil "bibigwasan" ko sila sa susunod na magkita kami! wahahaha!

namili muna kami ng pagkain sa GROCER E [sa ampid] bago sumakay ng tricycle papuntang bahay. pagkain namin yun. ang binili ni noriza ay dalawang plastic ng MARIE--at sa wakas, nakakain ulit ako nun. si claire naman ay isang bote ng NESTEA ICED TEA na inumin niya at isang balot ng SUPER THIN ang binili--favorite lahat a! ako, haykeyk binili ko. merienda namin sa hapon. ang saya! FOOD TRIP! =')

pagdating sa bahay, pagkatanggal ko ng mga sapatos ko, pumunta na ako ng living room at binuksan yung PC. tas haeion, inumpisahan na naming gawin yung first quarter issue ng Probe. tapos, dumating na si ate galing 'di ko alam. dumeretso siya ng kwarto. natulog.

balik tayo. habang ginagawa namin yun, dumating na ang mga kumag--kirstie, janine, philipp [joke!]. hayun! umingay na ang bahay. tawanan dito, lokohan doon, lahat na! buti nga at wala si mimi eh. kundi, sobrang gulo na ng bahay namin at baka wala nang mauwiang matinong bahay ang tatay ko 'pag nagkataon.

medyo marami-rami rin kaming nagawa nung araw na iyon. at isa na doon ay ang pagluto namin ng haykeyk na binili ko. ang saya! sobrang gulo nila! [actually, KAMI pala...] ang ingay na sa loob ng kusina tapos ang haharot pa! pinaglaruan na namin yung hotcake. kung anu-ano na ginawa naming shapes. fortunately, nakagawa kami hugis HEART, TRIANGLE, at syempre CIRCLES. haha! nagmerienda na kami sa sala pagkatapos maluto yung hotcakes. aammmm! tsalap!

nung july 13 rin walang pasok. official pala na walang pasok nung araw na yun? hindi na ako pumasok nung araw na yun at hindi rin ako nangtanong sa skul kung may pasok o wala. basta hindi na lang ako pumasok. buti na lang at talagang walang pasok. lakas talaga ng FEELING ko!

this day, nakaayos na ang schedule ko. dapat ay pupunta ako kina RACHEL MARRA para magreview [sabay kami] pero sa kasamaang palad, nung tinanong ko ang tatay ko kung maaarin ba akong lumabas, heto ang kanyang answer: "wag ka muna umalis anak, baka magkasakit ka ulit. bumabagyo pa." hindi na ako umangal kasi feeling ko, tama ang tatay ko. pero, bakit ganun? pinayagan niya akong samahan si ate na bumuli ng libro sa RECTO? ... anung problema? ...

yehey! naggala na naman kami ni ate!

'yun lang...

akala ko hindi ko na marerecover yung password ko sa account ko na ito. buti napalitan ko na ng bago. woohoo! *eyes rolling*

lalala...

yun lang! salamat ng marami sa pagdalaw. may i hug everyone? *group hug*

ang harot ko ngayon! ucgi na. next time ulit! Ü

...gumulo ang buhay ko
...naging masaya ako
...natuto akong maghapet ng nakaligtaang takdang aralin
...natuto akong hindi mananghalian
...natuto akong mananghalian nang busog
...nakapagsayaw ako sa harap ng lahat ng rooseveltians
...nagkaroon ako ng karagdagang lakas ng loob
...medyo nabawasan ang aking pagiging mahiyain
...nakaroon ako ng bagong mga kaibigan
...wala akong naipon nang dalawang linggo
...hindi kami nakaattend ng aming mga klase
...naranasan kong masaya rin pala ito kahit na mahirap
...lagi akong puyat
...bumaba nang lalo ang dugo ko
...nalaman ko ang mga itinatagong lihim ng aking mga kaibigan
...nakapagsayang ako ng pera
...natuto akong kumain ng McFlurry
...naging favorite color combination ko ang yellow at blue
...nalaman kong may masasabi rin pala ako
...nalaman kong 19 studes ng Makiling [section namin] ang ano... haha!
...naipon ang mga messages sa y!mail ko na umabot na nang halos 6000+
...hindi ako nakapag-online ng 2 linggo
...may nangyaring maganda sa aking buhay
...at higit sa lahat........

dahil sa student council,

naranasan kong makipagkumpitensya, ibigay ang mga makakaya ko, at marami pang iba....







-----haha! alang wenta nuh!? hindi ko na kasi maisip yung iba eh! chigih! yunlng ulit!





tag mo 'ko!!

okay! as i promised! i'm back. [but wait... did i promised?]

that day, a friday [a freaky friday actually...], was a very... so... i dont know what! all i can say is that lots of things happened that day. as in sobrang super dame!

first, our "hapet" research work. my, oh my --! its very hapet talaga! and because of that 'stupid' rsearch work, i wasn’t able to eat my lunch. but thank God i have a classmate in the form of an Ava Olivia Santos and she asked me to take a/have our lunch. and guess what! what's our lunch? the very popular "saging / banana con yelo". and that really made my day SUCK! Imagine that! Ang lunch ko, saging con yelo! Kung hindi ba naman sumakit ang tiyan ko niyan habang nagkaklase...! Eh, hindi pa man din ako nakapag-breakfast nung umaga… si via talaga!!

Second [and I think the worst part of my third year life] is my review for our long test in Filipino [a 60-item test]. Haha! Because of our research work, hindi na naman ako nakapag-review!! And by that time, do you know what I’m doing? Wala lang! I’m just talking [not a bit] and doing kung anu-ano things lang naman around! And, aside from talking, i also prepared myself for the grand fight: the election of the Filipino officers [oh men! Filipino sucks talaga!! zteeg!! ----- I hate it!!]. And, unfortunately [for me], I was not elected as one of the over-all officers but somehow, I was nominated. Huwaw! Na-nominate ang lola mo por myus!! A dream came true… pero, mas okay sana kung nanalo ako. [unfair nga eh! kasi, naghakot talaga yung second year studes! Kaya nga kung hindi fourth year ang mananalo, second year. Lufet na medyo amper…]. Then, I went back to our classroom, still alive and alive. [huh!?]

Dendenenendenen!! And now, the main event! our “Filipino long test” for sure all the 3 makiling have been waiting for [wait lang. ako lang yata ang na-excite sa test eh!].
And, unfortunately [it’s the second time now on that day!], I failed. What’s my grade? Well……….. it’s for me to know and for you to find out! Haha! Just kidding! Sige! Sasabihin ko na nga! Sobrang baba ng grade ko eh! Let’s say……… line of -6-? Haha! Believe it or not, it’s true. Haysus! Parang mas marami pa kaya ang bumagsak kesa sa pumasa! Pasado nga, line of 7 naman. Pero, on the other hand, its better to have a grade like that than having my grade. [wag kang mag-alala, frexy! Ngayon lang yan! Kaya mo naman yan, DIBA!?]

Aamm… and, the rest [after that my, oh my—test] was FORTUNATELY, all went out tidy.

And, the most exciting part of my school day is ************* uwian!! Xemps! Kasama ko bestfriend, kuya at ate liza. Haha! Lakad through the fire chuvaever! Hang saya!

Hayan! This is just a quick recap of the things happened to me that sucking Friday. Noon, gusto ko Fridays pero ngaun, parang ayaw ko na…

thanks for reading! come again! =)

what the hell! huwaaah! i think the day turned *devilish*..

oh my judnest!! what a day! aherm... today is friday and i am here @ our library [and wishing that the librarian won't caught me doing this 'non-sense' thing... she sucks!]

well, i am doing our research work activity [and this is the hapet type], doing a quick review on our filipino longtest [a 60item unannounced announced test. get it?] and planning to have my lunch later... gutom na ako!!

okay! this is just a rush update of my blog... whew! im so tired nah!! [kakatapos lang kasi ng pehm namin...] and still, hindi pa ako kumakain...

well guys, i hope and i really wish na marami pa ang pumunta / bumisita dito.

hehe! well guys [again!?], study hard, pray always and review! okay! para pumasa!!

haha! gagawin ko na yung research namin!! [actually, ire-rewrite ko na lang po siya.]

ciao!

[continuation... mamaya! kapag nasa bahay na ako!!]

HaYakuH! SobRaNg DaMi koNg giNawa kaHapoN! SupER TaLagaNg NagiNg HEcTic aNg ScHEDuLE ko! FEELiNg aRTiSTa TaLaga!

FiRST: THE ANTipoLo MaSS
WHEw! SupER aga koNg NagiSiNg! 3:30aM! (Maaga Na YuN foR ME THaT TiME kaSi NuNg FRiDaY, LaM NiYo Na! pEHM Na waLaNg...). aT HiNDi pa ako Nakapag-bREakfaST NuNg TiME Na iYoN kaYa TaLagaNg MEDYo NaHiRapaN akoNg Mag-STaRT Ng gooD DaY. THEN, HabaNg NaSa caR (MaY SERvicE po kaSi kaMi), HiNDi ako NakaTuLog! EwaN ko ba kuNg bakiT!... SiguRo, DaHiL Sa SouNDS. HaNg gagaNDaH kaSi!!
THEN, NuNg MaSS Na, HiNDi Na ako HiNaHaNTok. PERo, MaY iSaNg fEELiNg pa RiN TaLagaH Na guMuguLo Sa iSip ko: “guToM Na ako!!”.
HaYuN LaNg! THEN uMuwi Na kaMi.

SEcoND: aNg pagLaLakaD Sa ‘PaRaiSo’ w/ via
AcTuaLLY, HiNDi kaSaMa Sa LiST Ng Mga gagawiN ko aNg pagpaSYaL NaMiN Ni via (cLaSSMaTE aND fRiEND ko) Sa ‘PaRaiSo’ (aS iN cEMETERY / gRavEYaRD / buRiaL gRouND / MEMoRiaL paRk / SEMENTERYO!!’). aHai TaLagaH! Sa LaHaT ba NaMaN kaSi Ng papaSYaLaN aT pLacE Na LaLakbaYiN, bakiT kaYa SEMENTERYo pa? pERo, iN pELNEST, fRESH HaNg aiR DuN. DaMiNg TREES!! PaRaNg poLLuTioN-fREE aNg pLacE... HaNg SaRap Ng fEELiNg! BuTi Na LaNg, NagpuNTa kaMi DuN... pERo, HabaNg NagLaLakaD kaMi, MaY paNiRa LaNg Sa ENjoYMENT NaMiN: YuNg iNiT Ng aRaw.
PiNuNTaHaN NaMiN YuNg LibiNgaN Ng LoLa NiYa. AT MaYa-MaYa, MaY NaSabi ako Na Nag-ugaT Na NaMaN Sa iSa pa NaMiNg paggaLa / pagLaLakbaY: Sa baHaY Ni KiM (YuNg bESTfRiEND Ni via) Na Taga MoNcaRLo RiN paLaH!
THEN puMuNTa Na kaMi. NaSa baHaY Na kaMi Ni KiM (NYaHaHa! NEw fRiEND..). Via SaiD, pEREHo Daw kaMi: Ma“ART”E, wE boTH pLaY a guiTaR, aND aLSo a --- NEvER MiND. HaYaN! TapoS, HiNDi ko aLaM. SaRap Ng fEELiNg... kapag kaSaMa ko SiLa. CHaNa MauLET!
SaYaNg Nga LaNg aT HiNDi ako NagTagaL Sa baHaY NiLa kaSi MEH pupuNTaHaN pa akoNg MEETiNg. GRabEH! HiNDi ko NaMaN kELaNgaNg puMuNTa DuN EH pERo kELaNgaN... (guLu ba? Haku RiN EH! NaguLuHaN!) YuNg MEETiNg Na TiNuTukoY ko EH YuNg PTC MEETiNg Ng SkuL (HaY! ANu baNg MEaNiNg Ng pTc? MaY LETTER ‘S’ ba jaN paRa Sa ‘STuDENTS’?. Sabi kaSi Ng TaTaY ko, SabaY Na Raw kaMiNg uMaLiS papuNTa Sa awaRDiNg cEREMoNY. (GRabEH! SobRaNg HaNTok Na HaNTok Na Haku THaT TiME. ME SEREMoNiYaS paH!)

THiRD: THE cEREMoNY, awaRDiNg cEREMoNY
ITo Na YuN. IToNg awaRDiNg cEREMoNY Na iTo EH paRa Sa Mga ScHoLaRS aT xEMpRE, iM oNE of THEM. AT DaHiL Sa cEREMoNY Na iTo, FINALLY, NakaTuLog DiN ako!
HoNga paLa. KaSaMa ko YuNg iba koNg cLaSSMaTES / fRiENDS Na SiNa CLaiRE aT NoRiza. CHEMpRE! HiScHuLaRS DiN!
AfTER Ng paNYaYaRENg YoN, HiNDi pa RiN NawaLa YuNg aNTok ko pERo kaHiT papaaNo, NabawaSaN. KaSi, xEMpRE, TawaNaN DiTo, HagikHik DuN, kuLiTaN DiTo, paTawa DuN...

FouRTH: cHaTRooM
AcTuaLLY, HiNDi NaMaN Sa cHaTRooM. WaLa LaNg! Nakipag-cHaT LaNg ako Sa Mga fRiENDS koNg NakaSigN-iN. SaRap kauSap Ni aTE SYRa! (oiE! HuMp! SpEciaL MENTioN ka aNo!! HEHE!!)

FifTH: a fRiEND’S HouSE
HaYSuS! PaSawaY iToNg NiLaLaNg Na iToH! Magpo-poST Na Nga LaNg, TuNgkoL pa SakiN! MEDYo NagTaMpo Nga LaNg Haku Sa KENYa Ng HuNTi DaHiL DuN... pERo, kaHiT gaNuN, SupER Lab ko TaLaga YuNg babaENg LaLaki Na iYoN. I’M TaLkiNg Nga paLa of aTE Liza (Liza MaE cRuz).

SixTH: RoaD TRip
HaHa! I waLkED LaNg kaSi pawE Sa baHaY NaMiNg SobRaNg SaYaH! PERo, SuMakaY RiN agaD ako Ng TRaYk kaSi, uMuLaN bigLaH.

SEvENTH: bED TiME!
HaY! PaHiNga Na! buTi Na LaNg, waLaNg aSSigNMENTS foR MoNDaY. KaYa, HiNDi ako buSY Sa ScHooL. YuN LaNg! buTi Na LaNg, waLaNg pRacTicE aNg cHoiR kaHapoN.



SigE NaH! UpDaTE LaNg iToH abouT NuNg NaNYaRE SakEN kaHapoN. ME pupuNTaHaN pa ako. GaLa Na NaMaN!!!!

Hunyo ika-labinwalo: maraming nanyare sa araw na ito. Isa na rito ang pagpunta ko sa 1st mall tour ‘daw’ ng Hale. Hai... hay... chempre, sabado ang araw na iyon at kakatapos lang ng 1st week funk ko. Akala ko nga, pahinga na. yun pala, hindi pah-

Nakakainis! First week pa lang, bizi na ako! Review dito, paggawa ng assignment doon. Pag-iisip ng topic for our IP dito, pagsa-summarize ng research doon. Hay... hindi na nga ako nakapag-breakfast agad dahil sa mga iyon eh! (kung anong kaya mong gawin ngayon, huwag mo nang ipagpabukas pah).

At hayan. tapos ko na: tapos na ang pagsa-summarize ko, meh idea na ako para sa topic ng IP namin, nakapag-review na ako ng kaunti at tapos ko na rin yung assignment. Kapagod din yun! At after lang nun ako nakapag-breakfast (breakfast pa ba ang 10:30? Para sa akin, hindi na...)

Ayoko nang magsulat ng mahaba! Isulat ko na lang yung mga ginawa ko kahapon, hunyo 18, sabado-

-Gumising
-Nag-warm-up (pero, nakahiga pa rin ako)
-Kinuha ang libro
-binasa
-sinammarize (sinammurize ko yung binasa koh! Hindi naman ako henyo para isummariza ang libro diba!?)
-isinulat sa scratch paper (ang summary)
-binasa ulit (ang libro at ang summary)
-inedit (ang summary)
-isinulat namag-uil sa malinis na papel (ang summary)
-habang nagsasummarize, pinahinto si Nina (kasi, pinapatugtog ni ate yung cd niya...)
-binuksan ang telebisyon
-nilipat sa cannel 23
-nanood ng OPM myx countdown (at talagang nakapanood pa ako sa lagay ko na iyon)
-hinintay ang ‘the day you said goodnight’
-napanood ulit ang myx live performance ng hale na ‘the day you said goodnight’ @ #2 (sa OPM myx countdown)
-kumain (ng almusal-tanghalian)
-nanood ng ‘fruits basket’ habang kumakain (ng almusal-tanghalian)
-kinuha ang gitara
-nag-strum (isang strum lang. walang magawa weh!)
-naligo (sa banyo gamit ang tubig, sabon, shampoo...)
-nagbihis (ng damit!)
-nag-ayos para pumunta sa rob ermita (stop-over lang yun...)
-pumunta sa sm Manila (the destination)
-pumunta sa 5th floor (gamit ang escalators. Mmm... mga 4 yata.)
-hinanap ang lugar kung saan magaganap ang dahilan ng pagpunta namin doon
-nakita na namin
-pumunta sa harap (sa kabila ng ‘kakapiranggo’ na tao)
-hinitay lumabas ang hale (sandali lang naman kami naghintay)
-at sa wakas, lumabas na sila (ang hale. Sino pa ba!?)
-omnie (mahina na malakas)
-sheldon (ok na!)
-roll (medyo malakas)
-champ (susmeh! Puro kababaihan ang narinig ko! Tili dito, tili doon. Pati yata, lalaki, tumitili! Hay! Pamatay talaga ang ‘beauty’ ni champ! Haku, wala lang! kalmado lang. talagang panonood lang ang sadya ko dun.)
-amm... nagsalita. Kumanta (take no) w/ d crowd
-kumanta (broken sonnet) w/ d crowd
-kumanta (here tonight) si roll lang yan... xempre! serious ang song kaya dapat, quiet lang...
-kumanta (wishing) w/ d crowd
-kumanta (kahit pa) w/ d crowd
-kumanta (the day you said goodnight) w/ d crowd
Oops! p.s. lang! hindi ko na kasi maalala yung order ng songs kung kelan nila kinanta yun (pero parang sure na ako na tama ang order ng mga yan...). Hayan lang ang natandaan koh... pero, hayan talaga yung mga kinanta nila. HAYAN! hayan! HAYA! Haya!!

*peste! Nakakainis! Pano kasi, ang SM, pinagkakitaan ang mall tour ng hale! Siguro, ganun na talaga yung pinagplanuhan nila. Or baka kasama na talaga iyon sa gusto ng hale pati ng manager nila. Kasi, sabi ng guards at nung ibang promoter, bawal pumasok sa loob ang walang kopya ng album nila (hala! Gawin bang ticket ang album nila!? Ang mahal ah! 250! Pasaway na management!).

Paano yun? Meh copy ako? Bakit hindi ako nakapasok?

Kasi, dapat daw, sa SM mo mismo binili (dun sa mismong venue). At kung halimbawa namang hindi mo binili doon, you have to present daw your receipt na proof raw yata na binili mo talaga yung copy.

Kaya, dahil doon, hindi kami nakapasok (kasama ko nga pala ate koh). Hindi naman kami maxadong naghintay sa labas kasi pinapasok / nakapasok rin kami ng kaagad. Nakapag-decide na raw kasi sila:

==“sige! Lahat ng may copy ng album, kahit hindi dito binili, pwedeng pumasok.”==

Kaya, hayan! nakapasok rin kami sa loob (pito lang yata ang nakapasok kasi pito lang ang nakarinig).

Naghanap kami ng pwestong maganda. Yung bang pwestong kitang-kita namin si champ, Sheldon, omnie at roll. At iyon ay ang pwesto namin: sa gitnang harap. (cute ni champ!)

grabeh! simula nung nakapasok kami, nafeel ko na yung enjoyment. Sumasayaw na kami ni ate (yung sayaw na nageenjoy), kumakanta na rin xa (actually, sa ‘the day you said goodnight’ lang siya kumata. Yun lang xe alam xniya weh!). at ang pinakana-enjoy kong song (and I think pati yung crowd) ay yung ‘kahit pa’. grabeh! Sobrang gulo namin ni ateh! Kung anu-ano nang movements ang pinaggagagawa namin! At yung crowd ay talagang nag-enjoy rin. Na-feel nga naming gumagalaw yung floor weh! Kasi, yung mga tao sa labas, tumatalon! (astig talaga! Ganun ang mga gusto koh! Mala-bonez tour ang dating!!! \m/)-

-tapos, tapos na ang kantahan. Autograph signing naman.
-pumila
-nag-isip
-naglakad ng bahagya
-basta! Kung anu-ano na ang nagagawa koh. Antagal kasi weh!
-tinignan ang wrist koh.
-hala! Ang bracelet kong exclusively for third year ay nawala! Favorite ko pa naman yun... waaah!
-umasa (na makikita ko pah ang bracelet na iyon)
-naghanap (na crowd na di mahulugang karayom)
-nalungkot (dahil wala akong nakita) (aysus! Para namang makikita ko pa yon! Asa pah...)
-at finally, nakapagpa-autograph na.
-sheldon (na tila tinatamad na pagpirma) pero talagang maamo pala ang mukha niya...
-roll (na nagsabing ‘thanks’) na tila tinatamad na rin...
-omnie (na talagang may kaastigan rin ang kabuhukan) ang pinakamabait sa kanila...
-champ (na unang tinignan at kinausap ang ate koh)
-nakipagkamay sa kanya (sa ate koh)
-sa akin naman (sa kamay koh syempre)
-nagsulat
-nakipagkamay ulit (siya nakipagkamay sa amin...)

*petse! (ulit) paano kasi, iniwanan ni ate yung chelpown niyang meh camerah! Medyo nanghinayang rin ako dahil kasi, parang first and last mall tour na iyon ng hale na mapupuntahan koh, tapos wala pang remembrance! Pasaway talaga!

-tapos, labas na (hindi ng SM)
-naggala
-kumain
-naglakad
-kumain ulit
-umuwi
-iminom ng C2 (apple flavor)

*pagdating ko sa bahay, may balita akong nalaman: nag-guest pala sila sa eat bulaga! Kayamot! Pati pala ang sponge cola ei nandun rin! Hay naku naman talaga! Ayoko nah! Pero, ayus lang! at least, nakapunta naman ako sa first mall tour ‘raw’ nila...

-kumain
-sinubukang tugtugin ang ‘bent down’
-nanood
-binukasan ang computer
-isinulat ito
-pinatay (ang pc)
-naglinis (da body, da body)
-nag-text habang nakahiga (marami-rami rin yun) pero, hindi ko sila tinext about dun sa pagpunta ko sa mall tour ng hale. Wala lang! parang simpleng text lang... ung usual kong ginagawa.
-pumikit
-natulog

Hayun lang!

Bad shot! (a very late post)

---paunawa: ang post na ito ay ginawa ko pa nung Wednesday ngunit, ngayon ko lamang nai-post dito. ang pesta na nga pala ngayon ay lunes [oha! Ayos ano!]. Tinamad na kasi akong i-edit pah kaya isipin mo na lang, very fresh itong post na ito [feel fresh... >_<)... chigi na!!!



Haay.. first day funk ko kahapon (hehe! Nasanay na kasi akong tawaging ‘first day funk’ ang first day ng class ko. ) at sobrang... sobrang... sobrang hindi ko alam ang feeling-
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Noon, nung bakasyon, sopher exciteness at exciting to the ‘F’th power na akong pumasok. Pero, habang papalapit na ng papalapit ang pasukan, at papatapos na rin ng papatapos ang bakasyon, nasasabi ko na yung mga salitang ‘ayoko pang pumasoooook!’. Or should I say ‘ayoko nang pumasooook!’ Haay... (joke lang! gusto ko pa rin namang mag-aral kahit papaano...)
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Kagulat ito!---
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Hindi ko alam kung bakit. namiss ko lahat ng classmates at friends ko (soooper!) pero pagdating ko sa skul (sa loob) at nung nakita ko silang lahat (yung mga classmates and friends ko), hindi ko sila pinansin. Pinansin ko naman sila pero yung ‘hi!’ ‘hello!’ lang. Haha! Wala lang! hindi ko nga alam kung bakit... siguro, bangag lang ako nung mga oras na yon...
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Siguro, ni-reserve ko lang ang excitementnessabilityableur kong makipagkulitan sa kanila. Kasi, sa loob ako ng classroom bumirah! Grabeh! Sa hinaba-haba ng panahong ako’y tahimik at lubog sa kalungkutan at pasakit (cho jeep!), doon lang ulit ako kumulit ng ganun! Bumalik na ulit yung tunay na ako (a-huh!?). ^_^
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Ito naman ang nangyari sa akin nung English period namin (2nd period)...
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Napagalitan agad ako! Special mention nah, with matching duro pah! San ka pa!!??!! At wish ko lang, hindi magtagal...
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Gusto mo malaman kung bakit?!? Ganito yon---
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Kasi, yun nga, napagalitan kaagad ako ng teacher namin (si mr. reyes na super raw kung mamersonal ng grade ayon sa aking friend). Pero, nagkamali lang siya (si mr. teacher) ng inakala.
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May classmate kasi akong humingi ng favor sa akin.
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She said:
“frexylyn, anong next subject?”
Ako, hindi ko alam ang isasagot kaya tumayo ako papunta sa mini-bulletin board namin na sa kasamaang palad ay nakalagay malapit sa pintuan (pesteng pintuan yan! Pero, meh pintuan ba!?). paglapit ko dun, nakakailang step pa lang ako (2 pa lang yata), dumating na si mr. teacher at nahuli akong nakatayo, naglalakad, na parang isang estudyanteng may balak lumabas ng kanyang silid-aralan ng walang paalam... Kaya hayun! Akala niya siguro, lalabas ako ng classroom (aherm... hindi ko po ugali ang lumabas ng classroom ng walang permission ng guro ano!). At doon na ako nagsimulang kabahan (pag-upu ko. Hindi ko na nga yatang nagawang tignan siya sa mata dahil doon weh!). Pero, kahit ganun, calm pa rin naman ako.
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At xempre, habang dini-discuss ang home rules, maya-maya, siguro ilang segundo lang iyon, naduro ako! Grabeh! At xempre, kita yun ng buong klase... haaay... (hanu ba yan! HisfesiaL mentionedstd kaagad!!!) Kung nagkalakas lang sana ako ng loob na mag-explain, baka malaman niya na mali siya. Pero, ayos lang yun! Alam naman ng klase na mali si mr. teacher. Ahihihihi!
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Sa mga next meetings, maayos naman ang naging daloy ng lahat. At nung break, nakita ko ulit yung mga friends kong ngayon eh mga seniors nah (si pox, ate cheenee, kuya Aylmer, ate liza, kuya arnel, kuya Vinson, ate princess, at yung iba pah). Hay! Hang saya! Mga ate at kuya koh yung mga yun! (and im proud...) Buti na lang at sabay na kaming kumakaing lahat.
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Ngayon, hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko... talagang hindi ko na alam. WALA AKONG ALAM!!!
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Ikaw? Ayus ba first day funk moh!?
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Cont... (next post)

10th Grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the boy
next to me. He was my so-called "best friend". I
stared at black hair, and wished he was
mine. Butshe didn't notice me like that, and I knew
it. After class, he walked up to me and asked me
for the notes he had missed the day before and i
handed them to him. he said "thanks" and gave
me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell him, I want
him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I
love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. she
was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her
love had broken her heart. she asked me to come
over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did.
As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft
eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one
Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips,
she decided to go to sleep.
she looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a
kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to
know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her
but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year

The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My
date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I
didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a
promise that if neither of us had dates, we would
go together just as "best friends". So we did.

Prom night

After everything was over, I was standing at her
front door step! I stared at her as she smiled at me
and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her
to be mine, but she doesn't think of me like that,
and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time,
thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want
to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be
just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I
don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I
could blink, it was
graduation day. I watched as her perfect body
floated like an angel up on stage to get her
diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't
notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone
went home, she came to me in her gown and hat,
and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head
from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend,
thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to
tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be
just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I
don't know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is
getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and
drive off to her new life, married to another guy. I
wanted her to be mine, but she didn’t see me like
that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she
came to me and said "you came!". she
said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want
to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be
just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I
don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl
who used to be my "best friend". At the service,
they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high
school years. This is what it read:
I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't
notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him,
I want him to know that I don't want to be just
friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't
know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!

"I wish I did too..." I thought to my self, and I cried.




***Don't hold back how you feel about someone. No matter what it is you should tell them because one day you might regret not telling them.

how do people see me=
Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.
They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.
It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.
They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.


The True You

You want your boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.
With respect to money, you spend as little as possible.
You think good luck might come your way, but if it does you'll be so surprised you'll burst out laughing.
The hidden side of your personality tends to be a little selfish. You only do what interests you.
You have a tendency to overdo things, but basically you value your friendships highly.
When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.


=how normal i am=

You Are 50% Normal
(Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal...
Other things you do are downright strange
You've got a little of your freak going on
But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself


=what's my love type=
Your #1 Love Type: ENFJ

The Giver
In love, you give your all and feel guilty when relationships fail.

Overall, you are humorous, giving, and motivational.
However, you tend to be over-protective and critical of your partner.


=what do i think of my friends=

Ferrero is your soulmate.
You truly love Liza Mae.
You consider Ate Jenny your true friend.
You know that your Classmates are always thinking of you.
You'll remember Joyce for the rest of your life.
You secretly think Paulo is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.
You secretly think that Ate Syra is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.
You secretly think that your Sister Florence is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Sister Florence changes lovers faster than underwear.
You secretly think Via is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Via has a hidden internet romance.


=The Keys to my Heart=

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.
In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.


=my birthdate means...=

Your birth on the 17th day of the month suggests that you are very lucky financially, because this date indicates a solid business sense.
Although you are probably very honest and ethical, this birthday enables you to be shrewd and successful in the world of business and commercial enterprise.
You have excellent organizational, managerial, and administrative capabilities enabling you to handle large projects and significant amounts of money with relative ease.

You are ambitious and highly goal-oriented, although you may be better at starting projects than you are at finishing them.
A sensitivity in your nature, often repressed below the surface of awareness, makes it hard to give or receive affection.


=addiction=
friends
You named your cats Chandler and Phoebe (di eh!)

You have had dreams where you're the seventh Friend.

You *seriously* consider naming your future daughter Emma. (nope)

You can tell within 10 seconds of the beginning of the episodes exactly which one it is - and you can instantly remember what will happen.

You can't go one day without a Friends reference.

You are forever writing scripts for a Friends movie and sending them in (even if you have received several thousand rejection letters)

Your favourite words are - Doi, Yuh-hu and Nu-uh

You only ever buy magazines because they have something to do with FRIENDS in them

You get your hair cut like Jennifer Aniston's (even if it looks terrible on you)

You are able to perfectly re-enact every episode line-by-line

You are always refering to real life incidents as 'The One With......'

You have made a soundtrack out of all of Phoebe's songs and you listen to it all day long

You've taped every episode of FRIENDS since the very first one, and watch the tapes continually

You refuse to drink any beverage (especially coffee/tea) if it isn't served in one of the cups like the ones they have at Central Perk

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are addicted to Friends.


=ako daw o!=
F is for Frisky
R is for Rebellious (YUP!)
E is for Enlightened (YUPYUP!)
X is for X-Rated (yeah)
Y is for Young (always! i'm alive lagi eh!)
L is for Lovesick (super! kasi si 'ano' eh!)
Y is for Yummy (i like lollipops. *period)
N is for Nervy (marami ako nerves sa body ko... nyahahaha!!)


my rising sign=
Capricorn

Old fashioned and conservative, you carry yourself with dignity.
You have a tough exterior, and you can be intimidating when you want to be.

Hard working and ambitious, you can survive in the most cut throat work enviroments.
Outside of work, you are a true friend to everyone in your small inner circle.

You may have had a difficult time earlier in life.
Capricorns are late bloomers and you may be coming into your own right now.


=aries love profile=
Your positive traits:
You're quite the charmer. You've got the wit and attitude to attract almost anyone you meet.
Out spoken and honest, any date knows how they stand with you.
Fearless, independent, and willing to try anything twice - your dates should expect the unexpected.

Your negative traits:
You tend to be vain, and you expect your partner to feed that vanity often with complements.
Hot tempered and impulsive, you've occasionally ended things ... only to reget it later.
You're obsessed with being the best, most loved girlfriend or boyfriend your sweetie's ever had.

Your ideal partner:
A risk taking, free spirit like yourself - who can keep up with your latest wild child antics.
Someone stylish, attractive, and fit... who can keep you attracted for months.
Is hard to get - and lets you pursue things. You prefer to be the chaser, not the one being chased.

Your dating style:
Wild, unpredictable, fun, and daring. Your ideal date may involve a couple motorcycles or naked skydiving.

Your seduction style:
Honest and direct - you have no need for romance or much foreplay.
Show off. You like to show your lover how you're the best ever.
Ambitious. You often like to go all night - or aim for multiple orgasms.

Tips for the future:
Start to believe in second and third chances. You don't have to dump them so fast.
Savor the process. Sometimes the best part of falling in love is taking things in slow motion.
Let go of comparisons. If someone's with you, then you've already one. Stop worrying about exes.

Best place to meet someone online:
Match.com - honest and straightforward profiles, just how you like them!

Best color to attract mate:
Red

Best day for a date:
Tuesday


in faireness, totoo ito... yung karamihan....

you were my once in a lifetime
Happy ending come true
Ohhhhh i, guess i should have told you
I thought you knew
you said i took you for granted
That's the last thing i would do
Oh i'll never understand it
I thought you knew

I thought you knew my world revolved around you
My love light burned for you alone
But you couldn't see the flame
Only myself to blame
I should have known
I should have known


A heart full of words left unspoken
Now that we're through
I'd sell my soul to have this silence broken
Oh i thought you knew (i thought you knew)

I thought you knew my world revolved around you
My love light burned for you alone
But you couldn't see the flame
Only myself to blame
I should have known
I should have known

he was my once in a lifetime
Happy ending come true
Woahhh i guess i should have told you

But i thought you knew (i thought you knew)
I thought you knew (i thought you knew)
I thought you knew (i thought you knew)
Ohhhhh i thought that you knew

hindi ko akalaing mabibigyan mo ako ng isang problema; problemang hindi ko alam kung dapat ko ba talagang problemahin. sobrang ang gulo-gulo na ng isip ko; hindi ko na nga matukoy kung ano na'ng gagawin.

nung una kitang makita at ganun ka rin naman, hindi ko maikakaila: ang ayos mo nung araw na iyon ay talagang natawag ang pansin ko kaya, hindi malayong humanga sa iyo ang isang kaibigan ko. pero, kahit ganon, hindi ko alam pero wala akong napansin sayong kakaiba; ordinaryo ka lang kung baga.

naalala ko, nung una ko iyong napansin, naglalakad tayo, pauwi, sa kanya-kanya nating tahanan, galing sa trabaho natin. hindi ko alam pero, parang napansin ko na lang bigla.

pinapaalam mo ba talaga o sadyang malakas lang ang pakiramdam ko?

napapansin ko siya, habang tayo nga ay naglalakad, papunta ng bahay namin kasi napagkasunduan natin na pumunta muna tayo sa bahay namin.

ilang araw ang nagdaan at nagsama na naman tayo, dahil ulit sa trabaho natin. lagi naman tayong magkasama diba?

papabilisin ko na lang ang oras. kunwari, tapos na ang trabaho natin. at, heto na naman, pauwi na naman tayo, kasama ang grupo. nakasakay tayo sa iisang sasakyan. hindi ko alam kung iniwan mo ba talaga o sadyang naiwan mo lang: ang gitara mo na iyong dala-dala, na naiwan sa sasakyan, matapos mong bumaba.

iniabot ko ito sa iyo at nang kinuha mo ito sa akin, napansin ko lang. ngunit, hindi ko alam kung sinadya mo ba talaga o hindi: na hawakan ang kamay ko, maging haplusin ay nagawa mo. hindi ko ito naisip kaagad. naisip ko lang siya ilang araw na ang nakalipas...

at ngayon, sasabihin ko na, kung paano ko talaga nalaman.

may nagsabi kasi sa akin may gusto ka raw sa akin.

hindi naman ako kaagad nagulat, hindi rin naman ako kaagad kumibo.

kung bakit? kasi, parang napansin ko na rin siya dati pa, kahit nung hindi pa niya pinaalam...

mahina nga yata talaga akong pumick-up. kasi, hindi ko kaagad nahalata. sinasabi na nila, pinapaalam na nila, hindi ko pa nakuha! talagang ordinaryo ka lang kasi sa akin. pero, tingin ko, noon yon...

nung nalaman ko iyon, bigla akong nagtanong sa sarili ko: 'ano bang meron sakin? bakit kaya? simple lang naman ako. minsan nga, tila pa ako ewan na bigla na lang gagawa ng isang bagay tapos, maya-maya ay tatahimik. pero, bakit kaya?'

napaisip pa tuloy ako ng lalo.

kasi, kung hindi mo alam, minsan napapansin at nahuhuli kitang tumitingin sa akin. minsan nga, nakikita ko, parang hinahanap ng mga mata mo ang mukha ko. akala mo, hindi ko napapansin, ano!? napapansin ko yon... hindi naman kita tinitignan pero bigla na lang napupunta ang paningin ko sa iyo. marahil, inoobserbahan ka lang nitong mga mata ko.

tapos, minsan, isang beses, parang sinubukan mo yatang hawakan ang kamay ko. paano ko naramdaman? naramdaman ko siya... hindi ko alam kung sinubukan mo talagang hawakan ito o sumayad lang ang kamay mo sa akin.

nung isang araw na lumiban sa trabaho ang barkada, at kami ay nakasakay sa ibang sasakyan, hindi pa ako nakakababa ng sasakyang sinakyan namin, hinahanap mo na ako. nauna kasi kayong nakarating doon. nakikita kita sa mula sa loob, akala mo. hinahanap mo talaga ako, pinipilit mo talaga akong makita.

hindi naman sa nagmamayabang ako pero, minsan, pwede rin namang palagi: napapansin ko, nahahalata, nahuhuli na parang hindi ka mapalagay kapag hindi mo ako nakikita.

ito lang ang napapansin ko. hindi pa ako sigurado sa lahat ng mga ito. sinasabi ko lang ang mga bagay na madalas kong napapansin. alam mo, ba, hinihintay lang kitang sabihin mo sa akin ang totoo. para naman, hindi na ako nangangamba pa ng ganito. marami na rin akong napapansing may 'pagtingin' sa akin at dalawa sa kanila ay totoo nga. hindi ko masasabi ang nasa isip ko ngayon dahil ayokong mag-assume. tandaan mo, pinapahirapan mo ako. kahit hindi ko at mo man gusto pero, pinapahirapan talaga ako nitong nalalaman ko... sana, maunawaan mo ang kondisyon ko ngayon... maawa ka...

kung hindi mo rin alam, hinihintay lang kitang magsalita. kasi, pakiramdam ko, iba ka na sa akin. iba na talaga.


-----napulot ko lang itong story na to. natuwa lang kasi ako kaya, nilagay ko dito... ikaw. baka ganito rin story mo... hehe! ang cute talaga...

It was a Saturday afternoon, Dec. 18, 2004, after ng Christmas party naming hindi ko matukoy kung Christmas party ba talaga or sports fest, after umuwi nina Noriza at Gellie patungo sa kani-kanilang mga tahanan lulan ng kanilang service, after na ipadevelop ang mga pics na galing sa napakalaking camera nina Joyce na inakala ko noong una ay isang video cam, after naming kumain sa Mcdo ng 4 na sundae (hot fudge) na ngayon ay P26 na (dati kasi, P20 lang) na hinaluan nina Joyce at Carlo ng picnic (shoestrings, original flavor) at 1 burger para kay Claire (pero, hindi niya yun hinalo sa sundae ha! Kinain nya yon!!) at pagkatapos ko ring bumili ng picnic sa Grocer-E na nasa tapat lamang ng Mcdo, nag-sports fest na kami sa school ng mga may tama: 'Roosevelt College San Mateo'.
Ang unang laro: taya-tayaan sa loob ng green rectangle at yung guhit na puti sa gitna na nagsisilbing boundary ng 2 court ng basketball ng school quadrangle. naglaro na nga kami. Nung napansin naming wala naman kaming napapala sa paglalaro nun, at kahit ako hindi na rin natutuwa, tumigil na kami at nag-isip ng bagong laro. ‘agawan-base!’, sabi nung isa, hindi ko na maalala kung sino. Eh di ayan na! nilaro na namin yun. Ang purpose nga pala nitong game na ito ay upang bantayan si ‘my precious’ (yung base naming mini-balde) na nagkandaluray-luray na dahil sa dami ng tumatapak (yung base nga pala ng kabilang team ay yung flagpole. lugi sila! ang laki ng base nila, sa amin, ANLIET! haha!). Sasali nga sana sina mr. gacer at mr. gabrang pero, sayang nga lang at hindi alam laruin ni mr. gabrang ang laro na iyon. Tapos, napansin ulit namin na wala namang nananalo sa amin, tinigil na lang ulit namin. Pagod na rin kasi kami. Almost 4 hours rin kaming naglaro nung araw na iyon. (grabe! Dahil sa larong yon, lumabas ang hidden talent ko! Sobrang bilis ko pala talaga tumakbo! Huwahahahahaha!!!buti na lang at comfortable ako sa suot ko. yung iba, NAKAPALDA! wuhahahaha!!).
Xempre, tulad ng sa basketball, meron kaming inawardan bilang ‘MVP’ at iyon ay walang iba kundi sina (diba! dalawa pah! san ka pah!?)........ Claire at si Kirstie na talagang sinacrifice ang shoes nila para lamang may maitulong sa grupo nila!(vice versa). Pumunta na silang lahat sa basement at uminom sa fountain naming napakalinis ng tubig (malinis talaga xa). Ako naman, nagpasama kay Joyce para pumunta sa store nina via at bumili ng isang malamig na bangkay. Ay hindi pala! Isang malamig na palamig na gawa ng kanyang butihing ina (kaselos!). after bumili, bumalik na kami para samahan sila sa basement.
Pagka baba namin, naabutan namin silang nag-uusap-usap, nagkukwentuhan tungkol sa kung anu-anong mga bagay. Maya-maya pa’y may nag-open ng story abouy ‘ghosts’. Medyo matagal ang conversation about sa topic na iyon hanggang sa nagkayayaan na ngang mag ‘spirit of the coin’ kina via. (grabe! Nakakamiss yung moment na iyon na sama-sama kaming nagkukwentuhan, masaya, kwela! At dahil rin sa conversation na iyon, nalaman kong may mumu pala tlga sa skul namin. Nyay!!). umalis na kami ng school, patungo kina via.
Dumeretso kami sa kusina nila kasi, dun pumunta si via. Xempre, bahay nila yun kya xa ang masusunod. Maingay sa loob! Si Jaycee kasi ah! ang ingay-ingay!!! Maguumpisa na ang main event (diba! Parang boxing!). nagbigay si via ng isang short used folder na may nakalagay na ‘album in arts’ na pagmamay-ari ng kapatid nyang c alexis. Kumuha naman c marifel ng ballpen at isinulat na ang kailangan isulat: letters, numbers, ‘yes’, ‘no’, ‘maybe’ at isang bilog sa gitna ng folder for the coin’s base. Yung coin naman, si Jaycee na ang nagprovide, P5 yata yun...
Hayan! start na!!!
Umupo na ang mga participants (Janine, via, rusell, marifel, amy, rea, ate Melissa) sa sahig sa tabi ng table ng kusina nina via. The happening started at 5:10 pm, oras ng school. Actually, dapat, 5:05 kaso, si via, palaging nagkakamali sa pagsasabi ng opening prayer (3 our father, 3 hail mary, 3 glory be w/o saying the word ‘amen’) eh si via, palaging nasasabi yung word na ‘amen’ kaya, paulit-ulit....
Tapos na ang prayer. This is the moment!
Si marifel ang unang nagtawag ng spirit. Walang nangyayari. Maya-maya, gumalaw daw. Hindi ko nakita kasi nakatingin yata ako kung saan! “wala naman ha!”, sabi nila. Tapos, nagtawag ulit xa. Gumalaw na. yung coin, gumalaw. Hindi raw nila hawak yung coin pero, gumalaw xa.
Xempre, kapag gumalaw na, it ,eans may spirit na.
Nag-umpisa na silang magtanong. (ang nakaunderline ang tanong, ang nakabold ang answer. Okay!) “what is your name?”
apam2a2 (kaya namin nalaman yung sagot kasi, kung saan pumupunta yung coin, binabasa namin yun.). naguluhan kami. Bakit ganyan? Name nga diba? Bakit may numbers? Inulit nila yung tanong. Ang sagot naman, iba na: n3m3m. hindi na nila tinanong yung question na iyon kasi, parang pinaglalaruan lang kami ng spirit. “ilang taon ka na?” 21. “kamag-anak mo ba si ava?” no. “kapitbahay ka ba namin?” (tanong ni via) yes. “ilang taon ko nung namatay ka?” 19. “sundalo ka ba?” yes. “Pilipino ka ba?” yes. kaya pala! Nung tinanong namin xa ng ‘what is your name’ na nagkataong nasa English language, hindi pala nya yun naintindihan kaya pala, ganun na lang yung answer nya. “may kilala ka ba sa amin?” yes. “sino?” ava. “katabi ba kita?” (tanong ni via) yes. "right or left?” “ano ba! Tagalong nga eh!” sabi namin. “kanan?” no. “kaliwa.” Yes. “pwede mo bang hawakan si ava?” yes. napatigil si via. Maya-maya, sabi niya, “handa na po ako.” Nyay! Nakita raw ni ate Melissa yung spirit. Pero, yung aura lang daw niya. (bukas na bukas kasi ang third eye nya kaya ganun, sabi niya.) nakita raw ni ate Melissa na hinalikan raw niya si ava. “may balak ka bang magpakita sa amin?” waaaah!! Kinilabutan ang lahat! Buti na lang ang sagot, no. "nasaan ka ba ngayon?” balaakalalbl3l. hindi pa tapos yan... ‘may place bang ganyan!?’ “pwede ka bang magpakita sa amin?” (iyan na naman yang tanong nayan!!!) no. “mabait ka ba?” yes. “galit ka ba sa amin dahil inistorbo ka namin?” no. “pwede mo bang hawakan ang pisngi ni rea?” nagulat si rea. Eh ang sagot ay yes. hindi ko lang alam kung kinabahan xa. maya-maya ay sinabi nya na “handa na po ako.” ito. Sasabihin ko na bigla talagang lumamig. Soooobrang lamig talaga!! Kakaibang lamig yung naramdaman ko na yon! Akala ko, ako lang ang nakaramdam non. Sina Claire, kirstie at carlo rin pala. Nanlamig rin raw ang braso ni Janine after nun (magkatabi sila ni rea). “may relasyon ka ba kay ava?” yes (pero, kanina, sinabi niya na hindi sila magkamag-anak. Ang gulo mo kuya! Magtino ka, ha!) kapatid daw xa ng lola niya sa tuhod. “may kasama ka ba ngayon?” yes. “ilan?” 1. nangangawit na raw si marifel. Nagpaalam muna sila sa spirit na kausap namin kung pwede muna xang magpahinga kasi, baka magalit yung spirit kapag bigla na lang xang bumitaw. Yes. pumayag naman yung kausap namin. Maya-maya, nagdecide na rin xa na umuwi na kc, past 6 na raw at baka hinahanap na xa ng mama nya. Baka pagalitan xa. Sinabi na rin kc ng mommy ni via na itigil na raw namin kc ginagambala raw namin yung mga spirits sa bahay nila. Nagpaalam ulit sila kung pwede nang itigil ang conversation. No daw. natakot yung iba kasi, baka hindi na kami patigilin ng kausap namin! “kailangan na po kc nyang umuwi eh! Okay lang po ba?” yes. “thank you po! Salamat po!”
tapos na! ang closing prayer naman ay 1 our father, 1 hail mary at 1 glory be w/ the word ‘amen’. After ng prayer, nagsalita si marifel. “spirit of the coin, are you still there?” walang nangyayari. Inulit nya. Wala ulit nangyari. Wala na. tapos na nga talaga. Bumitaw na ang lahat.
Bawal daw kasing bumitaw ang isa habang nakikipag-usap kasi, baka magalit raw yung spirit. Well, yung iba naming kasama, mga sanay na pero yung iba, pati ako, first tym namin. Yung karma raw pala, good man or bad, will happen after 10 years. Hindi ako kasali sa mga nagparticipate pero, ako na lang ang nagtake-down ng ginawa nila. Hayus ang trabaho ko ano! Pang school paper tlga! After naming maghiwa-hiwalay, ako, si Janine at c joyce ay pumunta sa simbahan para magdasal then umuwi na kami.
May isa pa palang question! “kailan ka namatay?” 1555. nyay!!! Ilang taon na kaya xa ngayon!?
Kapani-paniwala ba ito para sayo? Ako? Hindi ko alam kung maniniwala ako kasi hindi ko naman xa totally naexperience. Ayun lang!!! hayustd ba!?

"bakit sya nagkaganyan, dok?" tanong ng kanyang professor.
"mahabang istorya", ika ng doktor.
"may panahaon ako upang makinig."
napatingin si dok sa mga mata ng mauisang guro at sinabing, "ikukwento ko na sa iyo pero sa tingin ko, hindi ka maniniwala."
"hhmm... subukan nyo na lang ho. wala namang masasayang kundi oras lamang, diba?"
may sadyang katahimikan sa pagitan ng dalawa, na tila paghahanda sa paglahad ng isang kwento na ni ang kwentista'y hindi makapaniwala.

***
"talagang karakter ka, noh Simon”, hinagpis ng ikalawang babae ni Simon ngayong linggo.
“ngayon mo lang nalaman! Akala ko ba matalino ka!?”, sabay tawa ng sarkastikong Simon sa naulinag.
“ohh, talagang wala ka lang silbi! Anong tingin mo sa aming mga babae, LARUAN!?”
“hhmm... Cherie, bakit mo pa ba tinatanong ang bagay na iyan? Alam mo na naman ang sagot, diba!?”
“lumayas ka dito! wala kang kwentang tao! Makakahanap ka rin ng katapat mo. Lumabas ka na’t habang nakakapagtimpi pa ako...”
“paalam, Cherie!”, sabay lakad ni Simon patungo sa pinto, ni walang lingon, animo’y walang pananagutan.
At sa galit ni Cherie, sinumpa niya si Simon, “mamamatay ka rin at sana ay masunog ang kaluluwa mo sa impyerno.”
Ito’y isang gabi katulad ng mga gabing pinalipas ni Simon Sibacio. Siya at ang kanyang matalik na kaibigan na si Parmisano Silayan ay nagkita na naman sa isang kapehan sa puso ng Makati matapos ang gabi ng pagliliwaliw, nag-uusap, nagdidiskurso at nagtatawanan ukol sa linggong nakalipas.
“talaga, pare! Sinabi nya yon! Lupet!”, ika ni Parmi.
“sobra Parmi. Biro mo ‘yon! Hindi ba niya alam na laro lang lahat ng yon! Sobrang ewan talaga sya talaga kung tatanungin mo ako...”, sabay tawa ni Simon. “uhmm... isa pa ngang Venti Mocha Frappe”, ukol ni Simon sa barista.
Tumahimik ang kapaligiran hanggang sa muling nagbukas ng bibig si Parmi, “pero, seryoso, Sio. Minsan ba, naisip mo na baka balang araw balikan ka ng karma?... kasi nag-isip-isip ako ngayong nakalipas na araw, kung tama ba itong ginagawa nating panloloko.”
“KARMA!? Parms, nalalambot ka na ba!? Ikaw sa lahat ng tao ang dapat makaalam na walang karma! You are an atheist, aren’t you? O di kaya may problema si Boggart?”
“si Boggart? Wala. Pero, oo. Oo. Alam ko ang punto mo. ngunit may paniniwala rin naman ako at isa na rito ang karma.”
“alam mo pare, para sa isang walang pananampalataya sa Diyos, ikaw lang yata ang sumusunod sa lahat ng Kanyang utos, puera na lang sa di mo paniniwala sa Kanya... Kakaiba ka talaga! Pero yung sinabi mo, may kabuluhan. Oo, alam ko ein naman ang ibig sabihin ng karma.”
“marahil, tama ka nga. pero, kahit papaano, may takot rin ako sa Kanya. Ikaw? Meron ba?”
“hindi ko alam, eh!”
Itinaas muli ni Simon tungo sa kanyang nag-aabang na bibig ang kapeng tila nagpapakalma sa kanya at sinabing, “hhmm... mag-aalas dos na ng umaga. Magsasara na sila. So, pano pare? Mauna na ko sayo! Meron pa kong meeting mamayang 8 eh! Sa susunod na sabado na lang ulet. Sige! Ingat ka ha!”
“okay pare! Ingat ka rin. Oge! Kita na lang sa sabado”, ang mga huling narinig ni Simon bago sya lumabas upang magsimulang maglakad patungo sa kanyang apartment. Habang naglalakad, napatingin siya sa magkatipang nadaan niya na magkahawak-kamay sa kabilang dako ng kalye at sinabing, “beware baby. Niloloko ka lang niyan!”, sabay ang paghagikhik sa nakitang dungis ng naalintanang kalokohan ng baliw na pag-ibig. Ang kanyang halakhak ay bumasag sa karimlan ng gabi.
At sa kanyang paglalakad sa kalye na di kalayuan sa pinanggalingang kapehan, siya’y nagulantang sa narinig. Mga yapak, “thump, thump”, na tila gaya sa direksyon ng yapak ng kanyang mga paa. Bigla siyang lumingon, ngunit walang tao sa paligid kundi siya. Nagsitayuan ang mga balahibo ni Simon, nanghilakbot ang kanyang malay at binilisan ang daos ng kanyang paglalakad. Ngunit ang tunog ng mga yapak ay pumaparehas sa bilis ng kanyang pagsulong, ngayon ay para na siyang hinahabol ng kung sinumang taranta.
Subalit, siya’y biglang napatigil ng may narinig na nakababagabag na pagsita. “PSSST, pssst, nandito kohh...”, boses ng isang babae. Ngunit saan? Sa kaliwa, sa kanan, sa likod, sa harap, SAAN? Nahilo si Simon sa kakahanap sa kung saan nanggaling ang boses na pumipiring sa kadiliman, maano’t siya lamang ang tao taong naroon sa ilalim ng buwan ngayong alas dos. “sino ka? Wag mo akong paglaruan, magpakita ka! Parmi, kung ikaw lang yan, hindi ito magandang biro”. Ngunit walang sumagot. Sa kanyang isip, naulit ang mga salita ng kanyang kaibigan: “karma... hindi ka ba takot sa karma?”
Palakad na si Simon nang nanlaki ang kanyang mga mata nang siya’y may nadama sa kanyang balikat, animo’y siya’y KINALABIT, kinuha ang hangin, isang beses, dalawa, tatlo. Nakapikit na humarap si Simon, at nang buksan niya ang kanyang takot na mga mata, “AAAAAAAHHHHHHH!”. Isang babaeng hubad sa kanyang harapan na tila nakakatitig, ngunit siya’y walang mga mata, siya’y wala ni MUKHA.
Nagising si Simon sa sinag ng araw. Panaginip lamang pala ang lahat. Ngunit sa pagbalik ng kanyang malay, may nararamdaman siyang malalambot na kamay sa kanyang ulo, pababa sa kanyang balikat. “ooohhh!”, ungol ni Simon. Ngunit iba ang kaba ng kanyan puso dahil nang pauwi siya ay wala naman siyang kasama. Mag-isa lamang siya. “AAAAAAHHHHH!!!”, nakakakilabot na sigaw ni Simon. Ang babaeng walang mukha mula sa kanyang panaginip, hayun at nasa kanyang likuran, minamasahe sya.
“krriiinnnggg, kriiinnnggg!”, alas dos na ng umaga. “Napakasamang panaginip”, ika ni Simon, sabay tayo sa kanyang kama at diretso sa kasilyas upang maghilamos. “sshhh, (agos ng tubig mula sa gripo. Walang kokontra, ha! Tubig yan. XD) basa ang kanyang mukha sa harap ng salamin. “good morning Simon, panaginip lamang ang lahat, panaginip lamang”.
Subalit, ng maaninag niya ang kanyang tukador, bigla siyang nagulantang sa kanyang nakita. Isang puting kamison, nakasabit sa kanyang antigong aparador. Lumaki ang lumuluhang mata ni Simon sabay ang dagliang pagtakbo niya tungo sa kanyang kama. Siya ay nagtalukbong sa takot na tila isang asong pinutulan ng buntot. Nagpapaulit-ulit sa kanyang isip na marahil ay patay na siya at ito ang impyernong sumpa ni Cherie. “tigilan mo ko! TIGILAN MO KO!”, paulit-ulit na sigaw ni Simon.
At sa ilalim ng kumot, nakaulinag ang kanyang tenga ng isang boses, isang binibining kumakanta sa himig... “loving you, hmm hmm, such an easy thing to do oohh ohh ohh...”. umupo ang nanginginig na Simon sa kanyang kama, umuugong paharap, patalikod, paulit-ulit, habang naririnig ang boses nang kumakantang babae. At nang lumakas ang kanyang loob sa pagkakataong di niya alam kung papaano, tumayo siya’t nagsimulang bumaba sa hagdan upang harapin ang bangungot. Tumatagaktak ang kanyang pawis maging ang luha habang patuloy sa pagpanaog, tatlo, lima, pitong hakbang pababa. At nang makarating sa sala, lubos ang kanyang hilakbot, naaninag niya ang babae mula sa kanyang panaginip, nakatalikod, ga-baywang ang napakaitim na buhok, animo’y may ginagawa sa kusina, sa kusinang namumula sa mantiya ng dugong tumutulo mula sa kisame. At sa huli niyang hininga, ang babaeng walang mukha’y biglang humarap sa kanya at sinabing, “simoooonn, gusto mo pa ba ng KAPE?”
“sinabi ko na sa’yo di ito kapanipaniwala”, ika ni doc habang nakatingin sa kanyang nakatulalang pasyente.
“ngunit, ano ho sa palagay niyo. Totoo kaya ang sabi-sabi? Yoon kaya ang sanhi ng kanyang pagkabaliw?”
napatingin muli si doc sa kawawang pasyenteng umuugong sa kanyang upuan, nakasilip sa dungawan at nakatingin sa blanko ng kalangitan at sinabing, “Catatonia. Yan ang sakit niya. Wala nang iba. Tara na. marami pang pasyente.”.
sinara ni doc ang pintuan ng kwarto ni Simon sa institusyon ng mandaluyong at nagsimulang lumayo.

Misconstrue

words: frexy, via
music: wala pa nga, eh!!!!

I may be weak, I may be strong
I may be right, I may be wrong
I may be a quitter, I may be a
winner
But I'm not

I may be a loner, I may be
outgoing
I may be quiet, I may be rouse
I may be free, I may be choked
But that's not how things turn out

(1)
You can never understand me
If you're trying not to do so
How can I see myself in high spirits
If your shadow is always here
stopping me from losing you?

I may be wise, I may be dull
I may be sensitive, I may be numb
I may be simple, I may be fancy
Again, I’m not...

(2)
You can never understand me
If youre trying not to do so
How can I see myself in high spirits
If your traces are still here..
Stopping me from letting go of you..

Why cant you remember
The times we had together?
Why cant you tell me
That you'll love me forever?

I may be weak, I may be strong
I may be quiet, I may be rouse
I may be simple, I may be fancy
Dont damn deny that I really care

(1)
(2)

Still, I hear my soul, crying
Begging for your love...
Longing for your hug...


---hehehe! gnwa q, inedit q, inedit ule ni via (thanks ha!) ... konti p lng yung lapat nyn pro, sana, matapos ko na xa (ang hirap! wla aqng ka2long!!) kc, kkntahin daw nya. xcited n q! sana, may banda kame.... huwahahaha! inspired xa aq, hinde... wla lng! prng naispan q lng bigla na gmwa ng 'poem' na medyo npagtripan q lng ng "KONTE" at gnwa q nang song... wag kng mag-alala. pag ntpos q na paparinig q sayo. pro, w8 lng. hndi nmn kta nkikita eh! huwahahahaha!!!

Alam kong alam mo na ang sign or star sign mo. pero, sure k n b jan!? cguro, sasabihin mong “yes” pero bago m sbhin yan, basahin m muna to...

Astronomical constellations of Zodiac sign

Constellation Date
Capricornus--- jan 19-feb 15
Aquarius--- feb 16-mar 11
Pisces--- mar 12-april 18
Aries--- april 19-may 13
Taurus--- may 14-june 19
Gemini--- june 20-july 20
Cancer--- july 21-aug 9
Leo--- aug 10-sept 15
Virgo--- sept 16-oct 30
Libra--- oct 31-nov 22
Scorpius--- nov 23-nov 29
Ophiucus--- nov 30-dec 17
Sagittarius--- dec 18-jan 18


Huwaaaat! Nagulat ka ano!? Well, sa ayaw mo’t sa gusto, totoo to. To tell you the katotohanan, this chart has been true for about 70 years already...

Kung nagtataka ka kung bakit may Ophiucus, hindi kita masasagot dyan. Kc, kung ieexplain ko pa, ANG HABA! Kaya, di bale na lang...

Ngayon, anon a ang gagamitin mong sign? Yung base dito o yung star sign mo ngayon?

Ako, ewan...

=ang 1st buk ever riten on a typwriter was "the adventures of tom sawyer" by mark twain in 1876?

=some toothpaste contains crushed volcanic stone? (tuthbrush ka mamaya ha!)

=ang king of hearts lng ang only king w/o a moustache sa deck of plying cards?

=ang great horned owl can turn his head 270 degrees? (kaya mo un!?)

=sina prince charles at prince william ay never nagta-travel sa same plane? (kaya kung may narinig kang news na namatay cla pareho sa isang plane crash, dont biliv...marahil, isa lng....)

=most dogs are color-blided? (they see everything as black, white, or gray.)

="winnie" the pooh's real name is winnipeg?

=merong 42 dots sa pair of dice?

=ang mona lisa ni leonardo da vinci ay wlng mga kilay? (yun ang fashion sa kanila non...)

=ang mga elepante ay nakakatalon? (isipin mo nga un! kumapit ka muna....)

=women blink nearly twice as much as men do?

=a cow farts 200 times as much gas as a person?

=giraffes can clean their ears with their 53 cm tongue? (haaaaaaaaaaabaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!)

=ang white part ng nail nten s called the "lunula"?

=ang "jiffy" ay actual unit of time? (it is 1/1000 of a second. gaano kaya kabilis yun?)

=may pores ang eggshells? (mukha lang syang solid pro, butas-butas pla.)

=ang austrlia's ayers rock ang world's largest rock?

=kapag nag-take k ng isang step lang, gumagamit ka ng more than 200 diff. muscles mo? ("walking is the best exercise talaga" pro, sakin, inde.....")

=sa cleveland, ohio, bawal manghuli ng daga kapag wala kang hunting license? (special ang mga daga!)

=plants can talk? (uu! as a thirsty plant sucks the last drop of moisture from its fibers, it makes a high pitched noise. sobrang high na hindi natin pwedeng hindi marinig...)

=ang "almost" ang longest word in the english language na ang letters ay arranged alphabetically? (tingnan mo...)

=each 10 fingers has diff. finger prints? walang dalawang tao sa globe ang pedeng magkapareho ng finger print

=ang great wall of china ang only human-made structure na pedeng makita sa outer space?

=kapag minalas ka at hinabol ka ng mga bees, run ka lang as fast as u can in a straight line? (humans can usually outrun bees....)

=ang smallest bone natin ay ang ating ear? (uu naman!)

=ang air na ni-release natin kapag nag-cough tayo ay umaabot ng hanggang 100 km. per hour? (lauuuuuuuuuuuuuu!)

=ang earth ay may tmbang na 6000 million, million, million tons? (cno at pano kya nya nakuha ang bigat ng mundo?)

=ang heart ng blu whale ay tumutibok lng 9 times a min.?

=ang most common 1st name sa mundo ay "muhammad"? (pede bang frexy na lang!?)

=walang dry paper ang pede mong matupi sa kalahati ng 7 beses? (try mO..............)

=femur is the largest bone? (shemperds!)

=may way para malaman mo kung ano ang ape at monkey? (uu. meron! ape> walang tail, monkey>melon....)

=food spends 3 hours being broken down in our stomach? (kya pla, parang gs2 kng kumain lagi.....)

=ang blue-eyed people ay mas malinaw ang mata? (kontento nako dito sa bgy ni God....)

whenever im happy,
whenever im sad
whatever my mood is,
it depends upon them

theyre my inspiration,
2nd source of strength
theyre my hapiness,
theyre my priceless gems
and yes! theyre my friends

when im with them,
i really feel "i am blessed";
blessed to have someone like them,
for theyre the reason why im strong

i really treasure them, more than the way they do
they made me whole, yes they really!
so whats the reason for me to be lonely,
if theyre always there to make me happy?

Ehem....ehem....ehem....

Wala lang! inayos ko lang ung voice ko...i have a story kasi to telll....

---matagal ko na rin syang hindi nakikita; nakakausap. Tuwing nandito sya, hindi ako mapalagay, hindi ko alam kung bakit. Cguro.....
...... oo nga pala.... sya pla ang lahat sakin noon.... sya ang first ko....

First...

-crush...
-love... (I’m not that sure kng sya nga)
-suitor... (pero ayaw ko)
-guy friend...
-guy best friend...
-first dance... (ung dance group namin---street dancing lang)
-duet... (we used to sing “flying without wings”, dati. favorite kc nya un.)
-person na nakipaglaro sakin ng basketball... (sa kanya ako natuto ng lay-up, jump shot at he made me realize, “basketball is cool”.)
-person na nabago ko... (negmumura kc sya noon... ngayon hindi na at dahil un sakin)
-person na nagpaalam sakin... (lilipat na raw kc cla ng bahay. Tinanong pa nga nya ako kung gusto ko. Kung hindi raw ako papayag na umalis sya, hindi raw talaga sya aalis. Makikitira na lang daw sya sa bahay ng pinsan nya na malapit lang din sa bahay nila--nakatira kasi kami sa iisang village. Pumayag ako kaya umalis na sya.)

Grabe! Ayos pa rin ang face nya hanggang ngayon. At least, nag-iba sya ng hairstyle... ayos talaga.
>dumungaw sya sa bintana namin tapos, nakita ko na lang syang nakatingin sakin (hehe! Nagte-text kasi ako nung mga oras na yon). Nag-usap kami pero, siguro mga two mins. lang (ang igsi!) walang kwenta ang nangyari. Batian lang--“hi!” “hello!”. Tapos kamustahan--“kamusta ka na?” “ayos lang!”. tapos tinanong nya ko kung sa Roosevelt pa rin ako nag-aaral---“oo”. Tapos, after ng kapirasong conversation, he flew away na... with his mountain bike.<
“Bakit sya nandito?” kasi, diba bakasyon na!? eh di, nagbakasyon sya dito!miss na kc nya ung mountain bike nya...
Waaaaaah! Bakit!? Bakit hindi nya naalala... ung birthday ko!? Kahit ung word na lang na “belated”, hindi nya nasabi... Alam ko, alam nya un, eh! Pero, aus lang! Kasi, kahit papaano, may nakaalala naman...
>ano ba ang iisipin mo kung halimbawang ang isang guy ay kumakanta sa harap ng bahay nyo?<
Sya kc, kumakanta... “love muuuuuuuuuvs in mysteeeeeriiious waaaaaaaaaaays....” hay naku! Kung hindi lang FULL HOUSE ang pinapanood ko......... hay!




---teka nga. kanino bang story ‘to?

MuSTa ka Na!?

hoPE You’RE fiNE.......

KaSi aKo, i‘M BeRY, BeRY PiNe.....

SaLaMaT Sa PaGSuLYaP DiTo Ha!!!......

aT, PaSeNSYa Na RiN......

kaSi, iTo LaNG aNG NakaYaNaN koNG iSuLaT.......

D BaLe!!!! i’LL TRY MY veRY BeSTeST Na Ma-uPDaTe NaMaN iTo NG MaY kaBuLuhaN.......

See You Na LaNG KuNG SaaN MaN TaYo MaGkiTa......

KeRKeRKeRKeR!!!!

"ramdam ko na ang summer pero, parang hindi pa rin!". magulo ba? ako din, eh!nalalabuan ako sa sinulat ko. kasi, kapag summer, ang unang pumapasok sa isip ko, BEACH, pagkain at maghapong pag-o-online. pero, mukhang malabong mangyari na makaranas ako ng summer dahil.........................ala kami awting, ala nang fud sa ref namin at lang load ang phone namin. tapos, tapos, tapos, tapos, tapos, tapos, tapos, tapos, tapos, tapos, tapos, tapos, tapos, tapos, tapos, waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!!! gusto ko nang pumasok!!! miss ko na mga classmates ko. buti na lang, buti na lang, buti na lang, buti na lang, buti na lang, buti na lang, buti na lang, buti na lang, buti na lang, buti na lang, buti na lang, buti na lang, buti na lang, yun na yon! okay! malapit na akong magsimba....... magbibihis na ako. kakaligo ko lang kanina. mga 5 mins before akong mag-online. makikita ko na naman ang 4 kong classmates.................buti na lang at kasali rin sila sa, sa, sa, sa, sa, sa, sa, sa, sa, sa, sa, sa, sa, sa, sa, sa, sa, sa, sa, sa, sa doon! hehehe!


okay! yun lang! at least, nag-update ako DIBA!!!!!
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True friendship

A true friendship
Is something priceless
Something special,
Something worth the effort

A true friendship
Has no hesitations
Has no regrets
But has trust and loyalty between

A true friendship
Is a blessing from God
A treasure finally found
A treasure we should keep forever

A true friendship
Is just like us
Just like you had shown me,
Just like God had given me,
Just like a treasure
That I promise to keep...forever..

Last Dance



Here is a story about two bestfriends who fell in love with each other but both kept it a secret. These two bestfriends are Allan and Jenny. Allan is a good person, a gentle man and a shy person. Jenny, on the other side, is a jolly, happy-go-lucky person and smart.

Their friendship started when they are third year high school. At that time, hindi pa sila close. Hindi pa kasi sila classmates pero nag-aaral sila sa same school. Allan first saw Jenny in their school play, playing the role of Juliet in the very popular love story “Romeo and Juliet”. Then Allan easily fell in love with her that time. Parang “love at first sight”. After the play, he went backstage and asked for her name. Allan kept on approaching her and then, they became friends, later became bestfriends. Sometimes, when they are walking around the campus together, their classmates tease them,

“Kayo na pala! Bakit hindi nyo sinabi sa amin?”

“Ano ba kayo! Bestfriends lang kami nito ni Allan. ‘Di ba Allan?”

“Ha! Hindi ko alam. Oo naman. Bestfriends lang kami nito ni Jenny.”

Their friendship stayed stronger and Allan is still silent about his feelings for Jenny. In addition, Jenny, without Allan knowing it, is starting to fall in love with him. Okay na sana ang relationship nila but one night, an incident happened to Allan.

While driving back home with his car, his head ached as if this pain would kill him. It was very painful that he could not see his way back home. Thank God that he did not met an while driving.

When Allan got home, he lied on their sofa and shouted,

“Ma! Ma! Help! Aaahh! Ang sakit ng ulo ko! Ma!”

When his mom, Mrs. Rebecca Francisco, saw him in his condition, she rushed to the telephone and called an ambulance. They rushed him to the nearest hospital.

At the hospital, the doctors examined him. After the examination, one of the doctors who examined him talked to Mrs. Francisco.

“Mrs. Francisco, Right? I am sorry to tell you but your son…… has a brain tumor. It’s too late before you and your son discovered it. The tumor already exist, we think, nung 10 years old pa siya. Tapos, highscool na siya ngayon. I’m very sorry to tell you but he only has one month to live. We’re very sorry, Madame.”

His mother was shocked and cried.

On Jenny’s side, at the time while Allan was driving, she felt something weird. It seems like someone is forcing her to call up Allan, she didn’t know why. So, she prayed that nothing unwanted happen to him.

Because of the incident happened to Allan, the doctors did not permit him to attend school. When Jenny noticed that she’s not seeing Allan for almost a week, she called him up. And every time she calls, nobody’s answering. So, she then finally decided to visit him.

“He is on a vacation. His grandfather wanted to see him. Don’t worry! He’ll be back. I will call him later and tell him that you visited him”, her mother explained.

Jenny missed Allan very much. And Allan, still lying on his bed, also missed her. Allan stayed in the hospital for almost a month.

While Jenny was walking in the campus corridor together with her friends, they saw a poster about the up-coming JS Prom. She then told Allan about that.

“Can we be partners? Ikaw lang kasi ang gusto ko, eh! Matagal ka pa ba dyan sa lolo mo? Miss na kasi kita. Uwi ka na.”

“Sige ba! Ikaw lang din kasi ang gusto kong makasama. Dito naman sa lolo ko, malapit na akong umuwi. ‘Wag kang mag-alala. Uuwi din ako. Kalian ba yung prom?”

“Feb 14. ‘Di ba Valentine’s Day! Basta, punta ka ha! Okay?!”

“Okay! I’ll come! Don’t worry.”

After that call, Allan pleased his doctor to allow him to attend the prom.

“Let me ask your mother first.”

The doctor called Mrs. Francisco.

“Okay! Hahayaan ko na siyang maging masaya kahit sa pinakahuling sandali ng buhay niya. Sige po, doc. Papuntahin nyo na po siya sa party.”

“Hayan. Pumayag na ang mommy mo. friend mo ba yung tumawag kanina? You have to be strong for her. ‘Wag kang susuko.”

The night came. Jenny, still in their house, is waiting for Allan to pick her up. Then a minute later, Allan came. They went to the party together. When they got there, it seems like they can’t be separated. They walk around the room, eat lots of foods and do the things they want to do. They’re enjoying the night. When Allan heard a love song played, he asked Jenny,

“Pwede ba kitang isayaw?

“Syempre naman! Pero, ‘Wag mong tapakan ang paa ko ha! Joke lang!”

They danced and danced. Then Allan, thinking it’s the best time, say his last words to Jenny.

“Jenny, ang ganda mo ngayon. ( lalo akong naiinlove sa’yo) .Jenny, I think, I think this is my last dance with you. Take care of yourself. Be strong kahit wala na ako. Okay! I love you.”

“Ano ka ba! Parang mamamatay ka na ha! Tumigil ka nga. Baka mamaya matuluyan ka dyan. Sige ka!”

Jenny thought that Allan was just kidding. So, hindi niya pinansin.

The party was over. They were not chosen as the prom King and Queen. Pero, ayos lang.

The day after the prom, Allan is still sleeping. It seems like he’s very tired. But, it’s already 2:00 in the afternoon and still, he’s sleeping. What happened? Is he ? His mom tried to wake him up and then she noticed that he’s not breathing. She checked his heart and it’s not beating. He’s ! His mom accepted the truth. Mrs. Francisco quickly call Jenny and tell her about what happened to him.

“Tita, hindi po magandang biro yan. Kung gusto lang po akong makita ni Allan, punta na lang po ako dyan. ‘Wag naman po kayong magbiro!”

“Jenny, I’m not lying. Kung gusto mo, pumunta ka dito.”

She rushed into their house. When she got there, she quickly run into Allan’s room and she saw him sleeping. Then there, his mom explained Allan’s condition. Then, Jenny recalled what Allan had said to her last night.

Jenny embraced her and said,

“Bakit hindi mo sinabi sa akin. Why! Why! Why! Akala ko ba, bestfriends tayo! Ang aga mo naman akong iniwan. Akala ko ba mahal mo ‘ko!?”

“So, sinabi na niya sa’yo.”

“Ang alin po?”

“Na he loves you?”

“Pero, I thought, nagbibiro lang po siya.”

She embraced him again and said,

“Ako din. I love you. Pero, bakit hindi mo ako hinintay! Sana nasabi ko sa’yo kahit sa mga huling sandali ng life mo.”

Week after, Allan was buried with Jenny still blaming herself na hindi niya nasabi kay Allan ang feelings niya. About Allan’s mom? Kayo na bahala kung anong nangyari sa kanya.



THE END