i'm always here...

wala na akong oras dito. grabe. hehe.

whoa! hello. thank God of my mother, i posted this post. nyahahahoho!i really am enjoying my first week in UST with my blockmates. but i prefer calling them classmates. maybe
i'm just not used to call them blockmates. whatever.

saturday. PE orientation. i am wearing then my PE uniform. i really like it because it looks so nice. wieee! yellow black! growl. we proceeded to PE annex. i expected that we will be oriented but all we did is sit there and followed them singing some cheers for the up coming UAAP season "unknown". i don't know the season. ust will be the host of this season's over-all events. we sang some stuffs like go uste, viva la liga el tomasino, s-a-n-t-o-t-o-m-a-s fight, something like that. what a waste of time. nyahaha! then after the "orientation" i went to Joli's to buy my stuffs. wahaha. arking arki na! i spent 2,700+ for pens, t-square, papers, inks, rulers, erasers, everything. i'm tired enumerating them.

sunday. ROTC orientation. i came to ust at around a quarter before 7am. i walked to find some comrades
and i found none. it was already 7:30am when i noticed that nothing's happening. so i asked a groups of girls wearing the same attire i was wearing. they said "wala raw ROTC ngayon. sabi ng mga officers." nakanang...! i just wasted my money there?? i woke up so early, i used my saved money for my pocket money, then they just said na walang rotc? wada. haha. but it's okay. humanda sila sa linggo. XD

monday, we had our first freehand drawing that seemed to be very insulting because all we did is to write the letters a-z and the numbers 0-9 and draw some lines here, curves there, everything. so much elementary. but we all took it seriously because it was really hard to draw the letters than writing them. our professor in freehand drawing told us "if you're going to put your name after each of your works, don't write it. draw it." it sounds really easy but doing it really takes time. wanna try? you put out 5 sheets of graphing paper and i'll tell and show you how. no, just kidding.

tuesday, i was late. we also did our first floor plan and i made a mess. the floor plan is cool but my exterior perspective of my house is the one i can call a mess. i don't know why. when i got home, i managed to sleep smiling because somebody texted me. so surprising. whoever you are, i miss you so much. ^^

wednesday, vacant.

thursday! i just came from ust. i was with my guy friend, my new classmate michael. we just met on some street over espana. he is also waiting for a vehicle to ride on that time. we spotted an air-conditioned bus then we "go for it!" we talked a lot, asked and answered some of our questions, laughed, shared some thoughts, even shared some secrets. friendly, eh? ^^ it was so tiring then because i had with me my triangles, t-square and tracing tube that unfortunately we didn't use. wa. so i carry the burden carrying those stuffs with me. we already have our lockers there but the problem is that we don't have a lock. i asked ian to buy one for us. ian, my new friend. haha. and i have a bad news: tumataba na ako. i hate it.

a blessed week! i'm so happy. la lang. ^^

first week of classes is really fun. especially when your seatmate is kinda uhm... wahahaha!

MONDAY:

Antipolo mass w/ CE '70. i woke up at exactly 3am to do my everyday routine. i exercised, stretched, cleaned my self, everything! then i arrived at mcdo at 4:30am. unfortunately, i forgot to bring with me my purse where i put my money. i had fun. and i got lonely a bit. should i?? should i?? no.. waaa.. this bothers me. a lot.

TUESDAY:

my first mass in UST. saya. i've met apaul. a paul. apaul! wat da.. so cute name. she's a fine arts student, specifically an interior design student. we're freinds NA.

WEDNESDAY:

rest day, wala akong pasok.

THURSDAY:

first day in room 503. basta, saya. my new friends are cecille, "JR" <uhm..>, geordan, and capao. 3 guys and 2 gals? so perfect. ^^ i got so tired after my class. our graphics professor gave us the list of the "must haves" of the first year students. so i texted my sister, since she was excited regarding of my buying pf architect tools, that we'll be going to national bookstore after our class. we looked for those tools given to us then asked for their prices. after, we got the cost of P3,500 just for only those few stuffs. what the lalala... but the tools look so beautiful in my eyes. and i reall am excietd to buy them all. wiee! disisit! wahaha!

FRIDAY:

today! we are here [i, cecille, jr, capao, and geordan> at some sort of an internet cafe near jr's dorm. i'm kinda hungry. know what, we're spending our time here because an hour in this internet cafe <?> is FREE. yes! wahaha, free.. today is the opening day of this place and we decided to enjoy our one hour here, for free. nyahahaha! thanks to jr. he's such a nice person. actually all of them. ^^

i have a problem though i should really not consider it as a problem. shit. all the words those persons said still run here inside my head. was it really my fault? i never expected this. anyways, i'll just try forgetting those stuffs. uhm, forget forget forget. there you go.i was inspired updating my diary because something very unexpected happened to me. i just hope that this would be the last. please God. *fingers crossed.
well, i'm planning to go to recto tomorrow to pick up my ROTC shirt. ROTC? yes, ROTC. i chose that under my NSTP. and i do feel i really chose the wrong thing. dammit.

the thoughts are coming. come come come. haha. and i think you'll be reading a long post here, a bit maybe. hahar.

updates? okay.

uhm, i just got enrolled in UST for the first semester this coming school year. you want to know my tuition fee? well, i don't want you to know. T____T
the enrolment is fun. really fun! i chose my PE and paid for the fee i have to pay. then i had my ID picture taken, asked for an order for 2 sets of uniform, ate Zagu, asked for updates about the audition for new members of Salinggawi, talked to some strangers [friendly, e?], everything!

and oh! i together with my friends [noriza, mimi, claire, joyce, kirstie, amy, marifel, philipp, bjorn, carlo, marco, fressie, russel, and chester] had our bonding time the day before my enrolment. we had our outing, a not-so-planned outing, at Green Nature in Patiis. Russel pleaded for it because the day after tomorrow will be the day of his operation. buti na lang magkakasama kami nung araw na nagplano kami, something like that. we had fun, SOOOOOOOOO MUCH FUN!! ^^

i'm missing my friends so much. starting this june, we'll all be having our different ways, different univs and colleges, different thoughts, different class, different us. huhu.

i just finished my merieda and dinner. i just ate 1 loaf of bread [as big as the size of my 2 fists times 2], two hamburger patties, and strawberry juice. that's my dinner. ^^

recently, i tend to sleep very late at night just to perspire. hehe. i miss dancing so much that it really makes me choreograph some moves so i would be able to share it with my friends. uhm, let's say my co-dancers. haha. i just choreographed the song "because of you" by ne-yo. have you heard it? it's a nice song. ^^

i guess i need to stop now. i have to do some housework this time.

i wanna break down and cry.i don't know what to do.i didn't mean to make and break their hearts.i never asked them to fall for me but now,i am the one that asks them to forget their love for me.i can't take it.i'm causing them so much pain and sadness.they've loved me so much that they really don't know how to live without me,i know it.how i wish i never become like this because they've loved me fully,loved me for who i really am,no matter how i became so negative about things,especially life.why do they feel that way for me?i really don't know what to do.i just wanted to be friends with them but i really didn't expect that they'll feel that super special feeling,you know what i mean.hay.they're making me sad.they're making me suffer.i wanna cry for help.

oy! miss mo 'ko? haha! sana oo. mejo matagal-tagal na rin akong hindi nakakapaglagay ng kung anu-ano dito a. sobrang naging busy po kasi ako.

game.

`promenade.
uhm, was that really a promenade? hehe. wala kasing 3rd year. but i felt much happier.

we both arrived sa school nung mga quarter to 7 pm na. buti na lang at hindi pa kami gaanong late sa processional. at nabigyan pa kami ng rosas. wieee!
`first dance.
supposedly si ace ang first dance ko. pero inagaw ni tzupat yung sayaw na yun kaya si tzupat yung first dance ko. we danced. we talked. we danced.
he cried. yes, he cried. then he embraced me whispering the words na hindi ko ineexpect na maririnig ko sa kanya. "mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal... kita." basta, ang haba, ang daming beses, pault-ulit. akala ko joke lang. *pero i proved it real when he told me 2 weeks after the prom that he really loves me a lot. i was overwhelmed and a little bit flattered and thankful. flattered because akala ko walang magkakagusto sa akin kasi ganito ako. get what i mean? parang bang hindi ako yung tipo na magugustuhan ng kung sinuman jan sa tabi. hehe. uhm, thankful because i just thought na no other person can ever love me like the way paul blaise did.  i don't miss him. and i've helped myself not to miss him because i need not to
the party was a "nakakabitin" one. the food served, the dances we had, lahat! sobrang bitin. we want more!
awards were also given. dance presentations were presented. song numbers were given. hayun.
natapos ang lahat nang pumatak na ang ika-12:30 ng umaga. my closest friends planned an overnight kina janine. hindi ako pinayagan nung simula pa lang so we did a plan. pagkatapos naming gawin yung plan na yun, pinayagan na ako! yehey! ang saya!!
look at these pictures. ito yung pinaggagagawa namin nung madaling araw after nung prom.

haha!
almost 6 am na nung matulog kami. nagising kami ng 9:30 yata to watch "prince mackaroo." we played, we talked, we laughed, we reminisced, we chorva. haha! di ko na alam nangyari e. umuwi kami *frexy, noriza, mimi, kirste, and claire* siguro mga past 11 am na.
pagkauwi ko sa bahay hindi ko na maalala yung mga nangyari sa akin.

`sulyap
eto ginawa namin nung sulyap. wala naman akong pwedeng i-share e. hindi kasi kami nanood.

`defense.

preparation. naging sobrang toxic ng mundo ko nitong mga panahon na ito. i was assigned by marifel to do our presentation. okay lang, akala ko madali lang. yun pala, hindi. halos gabi-gabi na akong late matulog dahil dun. tapos gigising pa ng maaga kasi tuwing umaga, may meeting yung mga grupo. basta ganun nang ganun lagi. it lasted for about 2 weeks. whew. inaantok tuloy ako sa klase.
`research defense itself.
kabado kami. sana ma-defend namin nang maayos yung research nmin. nga pala, our research was entitled "the relationship between the parent's profile to the student's academic performance." all went smoothly, hindi kami nabara. hindi rin kami nakapangbara. sayang.
haha! saya.

`semi-finals.
eto? tomato sauce! hindi ako nag-aral para sa test na ito. ganun talaga. sinukat ko kasi kung gaano karami yung natutunan ko sa 9 months na inaral ko sa rcsm. buti pasado naman yung karamihan. mga 3 or 4 bagsak ko. okay lang, tanggap ko yun. hindi ako nag-aral e.

`finals
hindi rin ako nag-aral. alam ko na lahat e. hindi na namin nalaman kung pasado kami o hindi. hindi na namin nakita yung test papers namin e. wait na lang daw namin yung report card nmin.

`pronouncement
sempre. what?
hay, antok na ako.
basta valedictorian si russel my labs.
salutatorian si paul blaise.
1st honorable mention si marifel.
2nd honorable mention si claire my labs.
3rd honorable mention si noriza my labs.
ako?
basta, graduating. ^^
aakyat ako sa stage, ipinapangako ko. iaanounce kasi yung mga nakapasa sa UP e. wieee! kitams! *wink
hindi ako nakasali sa top 10. nahatak yata nung resulta nung semi-finals at nung finals. haha! okay lang yun. meron na kasi akong university na papasukan kaya ganung tinamad na ako mag-aral. basta!

`reservation of slot
tutal nabanggit ko na rin naman ang UST, magkkwento na rin ako nang pahapyaw.
last april 2, i went to UST to have my slot reserved for BS Architecture for the first 1st semester. meron na akong section, AR 1-2. *lintik, ayaw talaga ako lubayan nang dalawang numerong iyan. paking talaga.* hehe. ready na rin ako for enrolment this april 26. ano kayang PE pipiliin ko? sa UPLB kasi ang pipiliin kong PE ay cheer dance, street jazz, aikido, at yung isa pa na nalimutan ko na ang tawag. yun ang mga pinili ko bibigyan ako ng pagkakataong mag-aral doon. sana meron ding related sa dance na PE dun sa uste.
look:

goodnight!

...the UPCAT.

...the MITET.

...the USTET.

i took entrance examinations from University of the Philippines, mapua Institute of Technology, and University of Santo Tomas.. fortunately, i passed them all.. [thank you Lord!] i'm so happy..

whew! it's just like i almost went back to the times when i was so very busy preparing for something [talking about school work or anything] that made me so much sleepy every afternoon [which is very unusual when it comes to my attitude of sleeping] and have an at least 8 hours of sleep every night. this december, particularly the week before dec. 25, i've been so very busy doing somethings.

uhm, let's have my list of what i have done starting from the following days:

dec. 19_
last day of december examination. it was so annoying then because our watcher, which is our adviser, asked me to leave my FAVORITE SEAT and transfer to another.. grr.. i really should've complained on that [but i can't and i don't want to]. why? it is because on that seat, on my favorite seat, i can concentrate on my test. i'm at the corner kasi e. hehe.. shallow? that's me..
after that exam, we had our christmas party [a not-so-planned christmas party] inside our classroom.. that was our last christmas party at rcsm so we better enjoy it a lot.. wanna know our attire? we just wore our best uniform.. haha! we all agreed on that so it is everybody's decision.. we had our party, games, eating time, and the exchanging of gifts. it is our second christmas party in that school. and it is the best [or better?]. how nice.. huh?
after the party that ended at around 5pm, we [my closest friends] started our journey to tri ves [a computer rentals near our school] but unfortunately, it was fully loaded of people.. so we find ourselves some computer rentals cause we're craving to play dota that time [i crave for o2 jam]. we went home of different time. the first 4-noriza, claire, rachel, and janine-stopped playing after an hour. frexy and philipp after 2 hours and carlo after 3 hours. haha! nga pala, i've received two gifts that day: 1 from marco and 1 from philipp. liked them both.

dec. 20-22_
simbang gabi with family.. i don't think i had a scheduled task to be done on these days.. i think i just played o2 jam on these dates.. maybe.

dec. 23_
am: i went to NSDA with my choirmates to attend and sing for the mass [simbang gabi]. after it, we went to mcdonald's to have our breakfast. haha! it's for free! [i really do not know who paid for the meal we've taken..]
pm: CE '70 [Catholic Ensemble '70] just had their caroling.. it was fun, i enjoyed it. n_n
it should've started at 6pm but since late comers exist, it started at around 7:30 or 8 in the evening.. we knew it. [or should i say i knew it]. i really liked what had happened on that day because i really enjoyed our trips. but there's one thing that really made me soooooooo much embarrassed. ..... i'll just keep it, you'll never like it.. grrrr..

dec. 24_
an ordinary sunday. i went to church, played o2 jam, uhm..

dec. 25_
christmas!! that's it.. [happy birthday Papa God!]

dec. 26_
CE '70's christmas party.. it was fun, i enjoyed it too.. we held it at mcdonalds [we hate mcdonalds..haha!] but before that, i played o2 jam first with frenchly and danelyn. we also played dota with philipp, bjorn, and kirstie at tri ves, our home after school.. hohow!
that party's the best! [no..] laughters filled every empty spaces [what?] and my smile just broke when i saw dota boys.. he was there. know him? he's the man i really hated for he refuses he had hurt others where........i don't want to talk. he just hurt my bestfriend, i wanted to kill him. hay, i wanted that day to happen again.

dec. 27_
rachel, noriza, claire, philipp, and i went to riverpark. we ate a lot, bought things [particularly gifts for them], and boosted our energy laughing while finding our way out of that place.. haha! lost? kinda.. we went there at around 6:30pm, took an L300 ride after our journey and went home at about 10:30 in the evening. nice one..

dec. 28_
my sister asked me to accompany her to...secret! haha! shhh...

dec. 29_
i played o2 jam.. that's it..

dec. 30_
can't recall..

dec. 31_
new year's eve!.. happy new year!!!

mejo tinamad na akong mag-type.. sana mahalata mu..

[wahaha! para lang akong gumagawa ng article nito a..]

hay, i really can't forget this month.. lots of things happened to me this december [just talking of my school life. buhay bahay, buhay socializer..] i really don't care about everything now.. as long as i am satisfied, i can smile..

yesterday was the musical contest.. there, we presented all of our preparations starting from tuesday up to thursday.. whew!. it really worth the hardwork [paghahapit..]..

THE VOCAL SOLO SINGING COMPETITION-
it is the first event [but admiting is not really the highlight of the program] that warmed-up everybody---students, performers, watchers, teachers, personnel, audience, outsiders, vendors, construction workers, and parents.. okay lang, it made lang naman the program a palpak one.. the sound system encountered a problem.. it was fixed before the dance competition, buti na lang..

THE DANCE COMPETITION-
as one of the highlights of the program, this is the part i really enjoyed a lot.. [i think it is really obvious why i really liked this part.. o_o] i really can't explain the nervousness as well as the happiness i've felt before and after our dance.. whew! nga pala, we-mimi, janine, patricia, kirstie, sheilalyn, angelyn, normie, and joreen-joined the contest, representing the 4th year students. FORTUNATELY, we didn't got any place.. for short, we LOSE. why fortunately? it is because our classmates told us that whoever wins that competition will be the RCSM's representative for the INTERROOSEVELT DANCE COMPETITION.. e lahat pa naman ng mga kasama kong sumayaw ay mga cheerdancers.. kaya buti na lang at natalo kami.. =)
wahahaha! napakasaya ko pa kahapon kasi nakita ko yung CHILD ABUSE ko..halos lahat naman kami ng mga classmates ko ay may mga child abuse.. wieeeee! ahahaha! dancer siya, a third year stude.. his group won the first place. i know they deserve it, dancers talaga sila..

THE BATTLE OF THE BANDS-
ha! para sa amin, ito ang pinaka highlight ng program.. eto na!! in here, we boosted most of our energy.. basta! nga pala, ang pangalan ng banda from 4 rizal [aherm..!] ay "bound to break".. wahahaha! let me tell you the names of this band's members. =)
ava [vocals], bjorn [drums], emman and vincent [beat and rhythm] chester [bass], and carlo [organ and vocals]. they performed their version of bring me to life by evanescence. galing! galing talaga namin maghapit! basta!

hanggang dito na lang, may meeting pa kami para sa research.. =)