i'm always here...

~~a late post..

i love my life! it's so miserable! now, i'm free from school works, extra activities, libangan chuvaness, from everything! the next nth hours would be mine! haha! mine! n_n

i've realized something: it is really hard to stop updating my very own blog. being busy is not really a good reason at all. that's my own blah blah.. wanna know my reason why did i say such thing? it is because the thoughts, the words, the things you are to say when you start to update your blog after a long time might come crashing down to your veins and may result to bleeding, pain, burden. get what i mean? ako hindi ko naintindihan sinabi ko.. hay..

update about our pc. we've already fixed it! [thank you for the support and prayers.. appreciated.] it started to have its memory attack i think last wednesday. we planned to change it's memory kasi we've found out na yun ang problema kaya paulit-ulit ang pag-break down nito. and we changed it nga. nung naayos na, nag-install na rin kami ng pwedeng ilagay. haha! just tried kung mabilis pa rin siya kahit na marami na siyang programs.. haeioun, mabilis nga e para namang si slowpoke sa kabagalan kapag nag-iinternet ako.

change!!

what's good in this life?? what?? tell me?? everything came so sudden that i can't manage to handle them all. [i think i have nothing important to say in here..]

my classroom [Room 306], which i considered lately as heaven, finally turned into hell.. everything and every person inside that damn room seems to become dire, unwanted, intolerable. now, i'm adjusting to live with and without those guys inside our horrifying and dreadful room. [can you help me?]

the endeavors started to swallow my everything.. my everything, yes, my everything.. i can't wait to leave that school. that's a curse!! everyday is like a nightmare, every second is horrendous..
doldrums..
unpleasant..

let's take it slow.. let me remember the things happened to me those past few weeks..

[let me have my time to think..]

august 12, saturday
august 12, carlo and marco's 15th birthday. i went to their house to greet them and be with them together with some classmates [ang konti namen! bakit kaya wala ung iba jan..]. akala ko, magiging ayos ako. pero nasobrahan yata ako sa pagiging ayos! you know what, i really showed them "I'M OKAY" that time. [hehe, you know what i mean..] nandun kasi ung DotA boys. want me to enumerate them? uhm.. louie, arnold, bjorn, jomar, paul, chester, eman, toti, uhm.. uhm.. i think sila lang un. hekhek! ano ba, i'm okay noh! medyo nakakalimot na ako sa nakaraan. he's happy na naman kahit na wala ako e. i know it.. T_n

august 13, sunday
a, eto ung practice ng sayaw for the Filipino week program.. i've waited outside plaza for almost an hour tapos bigla ko na lang nalaman kay russel na nakina ava lang pala sila! [bakit hindi niyo ako sinabihan? huhu.. joke!] okay lang na naghintay ako. [kayo pa!] wahaha!! then we polished the steps and tried to finish everything. and so we did. we finished rehearsing at around 4:30 pm yata. then i hurriedly ran to some comfort room here on earth to have my get-up changed. from jogging pants and t-shirt to palda and white pantaas. papunta akong simbahan e! [halata kayang pagod ako??] then after my transformation chuva, pinuntahan ko na yung choirmates ko then umupo ako sa pwesto ng mga alto [malamang isa ako sa mga alto..]. mejo naglinis nga ako ng katawan sa loob ng simbahan e.. nanghingi ako sa choirmate kong si pauLo ng alcohol. mejo muntik ko na ngang maubos ung alcologne niya e. kasi ipinaligo ko talaga sa braso ko ung hiniram ko na un.. okay lang, refreshing.. [thanks pauLo! ^-^] after ng mass, umuwi na kami.. ay, ako lang pala.. wala kaming meeting kaya ganun ang sitwasyon. hekhek!

august 18, friday
last day ng first quarter examination at syempre, KANYA-KANYA NA!! we went to McDo to talk about everything under the rizal atmosphere. chimri, um-order muna kami ng pagkain. nakakahiya naman kung tatambay lang kami dun e sobrang ingay pa naman kapag nagsama-sama kami.. while having fun sa table namen, i looked around at aba! almost 75% ng rizal ay nandun! haha! nakakatuwa.. our section invaded McDonald's.. wootwoo!! we laughed, sometimes chuckle [kasi napagod na katatawa!] and claire guffaw. haha! [wawa naman, lagi napagtitripan.. ^_^] nagsiuwian na kami ng 7..

anubato, tinatamad na akong mabuhay. walang nangyayari sa aking mabuti, puro kalungkutan nararamdaman ko. tapos yung tanging kaligayahan ko hindi pa ako mapasaya.. and that's my phone. wala akong makausap kapag globe gamit ko.. ganun din naman kapag smart.. *sigh

nga pala, read my thankyur list:
rachel m >> for always being there
tzupatz >> for understanding my feelings
amy >> for knowing what i really feel..
ava >> for everything
patricia >> for the trust
paul >> for the time
carlo >> for being such a nice guy
bjorn >> for lifting me up
tapel >> for the dance
angelyn >> for the graph
danelyn >> for understanding
louie >> for telling me everything
philipp >> for helping me realize i really can't let myself lose hope
claire >> for understanding and helping me
arabela >> for the chat
arnel >> for everything.. hugz
krisa >> for letting me know your feelings
frexy >> for being so stupid to let them see you so very happy.. you suck!!
for the people not mentioned >> thank you for everything, sa lahat. bad or good, thank you pa rin.

there.. my thankyur list. i'm a er.. [ano daw?]

hayan! marami na ba akong nasabi?? pwede n yan. hanggang sa muli! ^-^